MOS

Yesterday was the first time i step into a club after like 6 year? and i still feel clubbing is not the thing for me.My friends and I initially wanted to go double O but ended up at MOS because of some of his friends are too young to get in.

Upon reaching the entrance of MOS, we realised that it is a bad move.Firstly they are playing Trance and house music, it is like Techno.Secondly, the queue is super long and it is super crowded.

To sum up the experience...



MOS(March Of the Sardines)


It was so packed that everyone is like going to eat each other hair.All around me everyone is trying to dance but it is like you have 5 cm in all direction to move and your legs can't move.i went up to the mini stage there to dance and from that view , everyone jus look like they are marching like sardines because it is so crowded that everyone have to move in somewhat like SHM(simple harmonic motion). Some of the guys will be trying to jio girls in the crowd( happen right infront of my eyes!) by pushing their body closer and closer to them.Peopl are pushing and elbowing you if you get into their ways and you must know how to execute your elbows to protect you.

It wasn't a good experience.

Clubbing is definitely not my cup of tea,it is not that i don like to dance but the atmosphere and the way people operate there is pretty sucky.


Perhaps i am not that happening, my ideal chill out place will be one where we can talk and fellowship and have a nice ambience and of cos i prefer to have these to indulge in.















*slurps*

Glory to God!!!

Today a few good things happened and i really thank God for them.

1) I did games for the first time in cg and it really went very well.I could see the cg having fun and they really enjoyed themselves.I really hope I can do more in the cg.Kudos to Lionel who did it with me.

2)I cycled for the First time in my life. Maybe it is unbelieveable to some of you all but i never cycle 2 wheels in my life.LOL. But i really shocked my friend who is trying to teach me and another friend who never cycled 2 wheels also.Although I never cycle before , i can understand how people cycle and i picked it up at the first attempt.HAHA. My other friend still have not master it yet, but he is doing well. Hopefully we can cycle around the shipyard from next week on!haha.

3)Today was D day as the results are released.I really thank God for the results.It is the best sem in my NUS life so far. Got 1 A+ 2A and 2A-.Glory to God. I was pretty distracted this sem by some stuff but yet God did exceedingly above what i asked or imagined.I guess much of it also attribute to the praying during this time.I rem vividly that i prayed alot more this sem! Finally, Dean's list here i come!



Today cell group atmoshpere wasn't very good. I was worshipping God when He beginning showing me things in the cg.. Shall not reveal too much but i am inspired to do more for Him.Not for personal glory or honour but entirely onto the Lord.


Be magnify and glorify.

The number one reason why I need to be thin.

Today i had some new adventures at work.It would have been a pretty good day if someone had not called me to "interrogate" me.All along people have been telling me things about him and yet i alway try to take neutral stand and believe in him.Guess sometimes "friend" can be an overused word. Use it only when u really mean it? Friends are not meant to be made used of.



First up, i had a little chit chat with the 3rd most powerful man in my shipyard.My fellow interns and i were walking, as usual, to our ship when we heard someone shouting for us to cross the road.Initially we thought we made some mistake like jay walking(everyone does that in shipyards) but upon further questioning, we realised that that guy is the general manager for operational. He is not "general" as in the general knowledge but "general" as in the 4 star general.Had a 20 mins briefing and the changing progress of shipyard, telling us how oil rig like jacks up are going to lose out soon and ppl are turning into different form as we go deeper into the ocean to drill for oil.He also gave us the assurances that marine idustry will do well for the next 5 years at the minimum.


After which, we fast march to the daily VSCC meeting then we decided to go for ship tanks inspection and this is where all the fun begins...




For some background knowledge, all ships contain tanks, lots of them, even the small ship which my project is on contains more than 50 tanks. Some type of tanks are common for all ships, like water ballast tank, sea water tank, heeling tank, AFT peak tank, grey water tank, dirty water tank FWD peak tank, etc.. too many to name.They are all located at the bottom of the ships for stability reason.


The tanks are not like ur fish tank, they are reinforce with ribs and contain small holes in them.just like the one shown below.


we had to squeeze thru this hole one by one..bearing in mind this,it is not opened up like this but totally covered up, not to mention that it is also totally DARK!



for a moment i felt like Indiana Jones, getting on my fours and moving in the dark tunnels.


Things in the the lowest deck is pretty scary.it is very dark and u will feel like u have claustrophobia.And u got to be thin enough to squeeze thru all these holes to get in.



The first hole i squeezed in.





More holes. they placed a "fit for entry" sign as some holes are free falling hence not "fit for entry". Imagine falling thru one such hole, *arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh echo up*
LOL


To make the whole feeling more "Indiana Jones", this is how some of the areas which we went thru look like.




I really pity those workers who work there! it is so hot and so small. Contrary to what many of us might think, it is not really that dangerous, because the safety standard is very high, so there is hardly any accidents there.



Me trying to get out after a dare by my fellow interns to squeeze into the smallest hole we could find.
HAHA!


can't wait for tml to come!

conflicts and conflicts of life

i hate conflict...


am i scared?


no a single bit..


i just dislike having to see someone and think abt something which can go much better if both parties allow it to be.sometimes it is quite amazing how ppl can be carried away by their emotions and not realised that they are carried by emotions and not the true fact of the matter.some ppl might have an impression i am scared and hide and stuff. i guess the best way i can put it is that, i don want anyone to get hurt.unless life and death matters, or when it concerns principles, then will i step out of my zone and enter into war zone. And i can surely assure u, i have made guys cry ( mind u,in army!) and girls wanna die( ok la..i am kidding, most of the time i just let them have their ways and try to be as gentlemenly as possible)




Was talking to a friend jus now.i believe God can turn it all around for you. All things are possible if you trust in Him. i believe God can turn it ALL around for you one day!


can anyone tell me something fun to do after work?

Run Forrest run!

Some quotes from one of the best show i ever watched in my life.

Encouragment

Mrs. Gump:I happen to believe you make your own destiny. You have to do the best with what God gave you.Forrest Gump:What's my destiny, Mama?
Mrs. Gump:You're gonna have to figure that out for yourself. Life is a box of chocolates, Forrest. You never know what you're gonna get.



Bumper sticker maker:You just ran through a big pile of dog shit.
Forrest Gump:It happens.
Bumper sticker maker:What, shit?
Forrest Gump:Sometimes



Forrest Gump:My mama always said you got to put the past behind you before you can move on


Love

Forrest Gump: Will you marry me?
[Jenny turns and looks at him]
Forrest Gump: I'd make a good husband, Jenny.
Jenny Curran: You would, Forrest.
Forrest Gump: ...But you won't marry me.
Jenny Curran: [sadly] ... You don't wanna marry me.
Forrest Gump: Why don't you love me, Jenny?
[Jenny says nothing]
Forrest Gump: I'm not a smart man... but I know what love is.



Life

Mrs. Gump (Sally Field) Remember what I told you, Forrest. You're no different than anybody else is. Did you hear what I said, Forrest? You're the same as everybody else. You are no different.



Principal (Sam Anderson):Your boy's... different, Mrs Gump. His IQ's 75.
Mrs. Gump:Well, we're all different, Mr. Hancock



Forrest Gump:Stupid is as stupid does



Mrs. Gump:Don't you be afraid, sweetheart. Death is just a part of life, something we're all destined to do.


Forrest Gump: You know it's funny what a young man recollects? 'Cause I don't remember bein' born. I don't recall what I got for my first Christmas and I don't know when I went on my first outdoor picnic. But I do remember the first time I heard the sweetest voice in the wide world.

Shopping!

Today was shopping day!


After work i went Orchard with stephen. Kinda walk around town after dinner to see what great deals we can find.This year there don't seems to have the GSS mood. There is no much of a crowd and even places like hereen is almost empty.maybe it is the economy, it seems like there is no big hoohaa abt it.


I wasn't really thinking of getting anything unless it is really nice, out of the norm and cheap.We were bumming around, doing window shopping(we are kinda broke) until we arrived at GUESS.


We stepped in and as usual, there is not much of a crowd. i walked around and saw this long sleeves shirt selling at 50% discount. i kinda like the look and i haven't wore a long sleeves t-shirt for the last 3 years at least. i tried it on and took a pic of it..




Pretty nice huh...except for the business pant i am wearing...


so i decided to GET IT!!!!!!!!!


HAHA...my happiness was short-lasting.


i did a mental calculation, i realised i cut my budget by quite alot this month.i guess...no more GSS for me until next month earliest!





work is getting boring again.been reading manuals on ship building , repairs etc..life can get quite stressful there because the pace is so fast. it is like sometimes u can almost feel like they are going to fight lol...but of cos they din, they jus get the job done.



ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


haha..me goofing around at work. nothing to do sometimes. my colleague and i will start talking from girls, to stocks to investment to life planning etc..everything and anything under the sun..


i need to buckle up on my holiday studies. must pick up as much stuff as i can!


Show me how to live, teach me in Your ways, so i can walk with You for all my days.

AfterMath

today time passed really quick in the office despite me feeling really tired.Didn't really had a good sleep last night, i think i woke up 5 times within the 5 hour i slept. i think nap would be considered a better term to use.


Right now i am feeling soooooooooooo tired, i think i can just lie down and fall asleep..but i think i might go for another short jog...could feel a headache coming up..haha..maybe jogging can help relieve it..i really hope to keep the jogging momentum going.


I got an urge to get a N95 even thought i just gotten my N81 about half a year ago. i think i like the 5MP camera and large memory plus big screen. i decided that if i get into dean list and my allowance get increased to 1k then i will consider buying.haha..i feel it is a want more than a need and i should get if i got spare cash and there is a reason to reward myself.my bank account is depleting and i want to maintain it.shall see how.


Internship has been pretty informative.just gotten new stuff to do and new manual to read.My PM just told me she got alot of things for me to do. YES! time to learn more and let time pass more quickly.This intern is really turning out better than what i expected.furthermore new friendship are being forged.I can't believe it when one of my intern slapped my butt and say it is firm! HAHA..no worries..he is not gay and he accidentally did that...but we laugh like mad...it is like things are really so fun there.Hopefully it stays this way.


After talking to my fellow interns and the people working at my Intern company, i realised that scholar and non-scholar got a big big difference. The career and promotion path is so different. Believe it or not, for many of those who are interning in the same company as me, they all want to apply for the scholarship and work there in future. Despite the coverall image( my coverall is clean all the time), we all are really doing management stuff and life there is fast paced and fulfilling.It is more like how good your PR skills are and how good u are at managing ppl.



nice song.


headache pls go away.

Purpose

God intended everything for a purpose and in Him i shall trust. :)

GSS

Phew i woke up at 12 plus today...slept pretty late last night..don't really where to go so i decided to pack my clothes..to make way for new one during this GSS.


oh ya!my first buy for GSS came yesterday from River island! i bought a long sleeves shirt...those causal one that can be wore to work as smart casual or can be wore with skinny tie to go service..the usual price is $105 but they are selling at $60. pretty good buy i would say.


Regarding GSS, some ppl like to buy towards the end of GSS cos it will get cheaper..but i beg to differ...cos usually what is left is usually not as nice or of weird sizes. i rather get them slightly more expensive but still cheaper than usual and nicer looking one which i like. so whoever want to go GSS, jio me!!! shopping is more fun when there is more opinions.



back to my clothes, i was really shocked! i totally forgot abt some clothes i have. they alway say guys wear 30% of what they have 70% of the time while girls are the reverse. i think this is reaaly true for me. as such, i decided that i will buy only clothes i don have, like vest etc..more "exotic" clothes! heard ed hardy is having up to 50% sales!


after which i pack my bags, then ironed 10 of my long sleeves shirt, of which some are for work and some for casual wear. and then i ironed 3 of my long pants. then i went to pack my notes and texts for last sem..phew...i think i did quite alot..

then i lifted a little weight..for toning..then went for a short jog(2km only)..

what a way to spend the sunday..but at least it is productive.


:):):):P

Tigers

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

First thing first ,today service was really impactful.I went down for the altar call and i must admit, i was abit fearful initially.Because of what happened once, i was like asking God, am i still good enough?Am i still worthy? There is this fear inside me which i didn't really tell anyone about it. Then just before the altar call,i kinda feel it coming and my heart was pulsating.I was thinking," oh no! NOT THIS!". But praise God,after encouragements from Vic, i decided to go down and while i was standing in front of the stage ,i really tear like a small boy. For a moment, it seems like yesterday when i place my all in front of Him....asking Him to use me in whatever He will...


after service i went to fellowship with my cg at pacific coffee company and i was talking to this friend of mine and she told me the most amazing thing.

If some of u can rem, for a period of time , i kept having this tiger dream. In the dream, i will be stalked by this tiger in my house and i will be hiding here and there to prevent the tiger from finding me. it is somehow a really horrific dream for me. it is realy scary as the tiger is really huge and fierce. The funny thing is that the dream will never end but "cut" abruptly.


back to my friend, she told me she dreamt of me last night. And in her dream, both of us was running away from a tiger! and for some reason(i forgot what she is the reason she gave me), both of us fell from a high place or something and then the tiger pounce on us!!!


then she flip her body and shield me from the tiger!!!!( she got the chance to become the heroine)

OMG..i was wide-jawed when she told me this. Furthermore ,the setting is both in hdb! i personally feel the story seems like part A and part C..maybe i will dream of part b tonight..haha..it is like so coincidental?

And i never told her abt my tiger dream and i only told a few closer friends abt it.



maybe she has a greater calling..







a calling to...







become...








more than just an ordinary women...









someone more powerful...












one that could save lives.

New skin

Woke up with a flu today..must have caught it from my fellow intern during work..he was sneezing like a few hundred times during work...

anyway someone commented that my skin is abit sucky...haha..i wasn't really looking at my own blog skin everytime i blog..more like i just preview it everytime i blogged to be sure that the entry came out alright...but it does make some senses..it look kinda boring..but well, even after looking through what blogger have, there is nothing really exciting also...haha..


someone asked me a question which really sets me thinking...

What is your life philosophy?

i guess this is a really important question that one must know...where u are coming from and where u are going...it is the confident of who i know that is in me that prevails...one that will shape your future to come...one that will affect you and even more the people around you...



Life is 1% what happen and 99% how you react to it.

Live life like you will never have a chance to live it again.

And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Change the world, but first, change yourself.

lian shang ling yi ge ren

nice song...going to hit my bed really soon...i am abit excited...haha..i am going do games for cg next week..hha..been really serving after 6 months or so in the cg..hopefully i can start giving BS soon enough...


suddenly we felt like strangers,
no longer was there the closeness we once had,
the things which we went through seems all faded away
i wondered what really happened..


thinking back..
it just makes me treasure those i have around me even more

work

life have been getting more exciting during my internshipp..other than the normal VSCC meeting every morning aboard ARV1, now my project manager is asking me to go progress meeting with her and the owners.i guess it is more for exposure for me.I am kinda tasked more towards the management side as compared to the rest of my intern.My project manager is also a scholar but she is bonded for 6 years and her overseas studies fully paid for.she has been working for about 6 years or so, think she earn at least 7 to 8k a month. Met another scholar who just came back from overseas, she is bonded for one and half years. i am surprised by the number of girls working in shipyard..so far in my department of 20 or so ppl, there is around 5 to 6 of them taking various position.


today just kena a few saigan( shitty work) from my construction manager, mainly to do reports which he or my PM should be doing but i guess it is all part of the exposure which i am tasked.Hopefully i can rise up to be PM in future, it is somewhat like doing design project but u have abt 100 man under you. i love to lead and motivate people, to push them and to rise up to the challenge..


life after work has been boring. everyday i would be home before 6.30. most of the time i will be sitting on my sofa at 6.15pm. maybe i should plan some activities. been running lately but i do short distance, haven't been running for months and as a result, i developed a tyre around my waist.haha...can imagine me with a flabby wobbly tummy as i run..yucks.haha..



time to hit the road for a short run.

Sentosa

phew i jus came back from sentosa.i can say it is pretty enjoyable..haha..i swam quite abit today..cos the beach was filled with secondary/poly/JC hunks and bikini babes, can't really do anything..The weather was HOT. i mean really HOT. The sand was so hot, no one could last more than 30 seconds on it without shoes.Since we can't really played volleyball as well as the teenagers plus the limited crowded beach area we could find, we decided to play water polo! haha..i was a pretty good swimmer and in my mind i was thinking..hehe...time to own ppl...haha....


then during the second shot i raised and swing my arm.

and then i heard/felt


"PUAK"

i sprained my right shoulder yet again!!!!!


in the end i was like the one-arm swordman...even when i swim from coast to coast, i was swimming back stroke...still quite alright thought..my pet events in the past was back stroke and breaststroke..

some of us then switched back to volleyball..some of us practised throwing the rugby ball around( cos the shaded area is too small to play anything else) while i continue swimming..coming onland just to apply my sunblock and eat


i am glad i brought along sunblock...i am brown rather than red/ black....haha...


some nice pics i took while going home




tml it is back to work again.


mmm who shall i catch up with next?


Maybe someone who can go GSS with me...need to do some shopping :)

ABC of LOVE

some interesting stuffs i read on my friend blog..haha...super funny but super true...

tml i am going sentosa! but i am so out of shape now..haha..but heck..shall keep my shirt on tml...


ROMANCE MATHEMATICS
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
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OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
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SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn’t need.
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GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
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HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot & not try to understand her at all.
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LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do,
but married men are a lot more willing to die.
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PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change, and she does.
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DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
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HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU TO GET MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings,
poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, ‘You’re next.’

They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

secret place

today service was really good...especially the praise and worship...we sang an old song and the presence of God was really strong...perhaps because Pst yong lead the worship..he is a really anointed Praise and worship leader...there was really strong ministering during worship and God spoke to me regarding areas in my life...really need to pray and fast over it...


this coming mon is a public holiday!!! haha...suddenly i can feel what the working ppl are going thru...public holidays are so precious..time to have fun and fellowship...


LORD OF MY LIFE I LOVE YOU
LORD OF MY DAYS I TRUST IN YOU
LIVING BENEATH THE SHELTER OF YOUR WINGS
MY HEART'S SAFE

WHEN I AM LOST YOU FIND ME
WHEN I'M IN NEED YOU SHELTER ME
LORD OF MY LIFE YOU ARE MY SECRET PLACE

CLOTHE ME IN YOUR PRESENCE LORD
DRAW ME NEAR TO YOU
ALL MY HEART I LONG TO GIVE TO YOU
LIVING TO BE NEAR YOU LORD
I LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
LORD FOREVER YOU'RE MY SECRET PLACE

YOU'RE MY PEACE
YOU'RE MY REST
YOU'RE MY SE-CRET PLACE

The Perfectionist

sometimes i feel i am such a perfectionist..alway thinking about how to be the best and how to have the perfect performance, be it in examinations or other area...if not i will be thinking about how to be the best i could..keep on improving and keep going foward...what to do and how to do...



To some this might be a painful thing, because it is impossible to have the perfect situation all the time, how could everything u do be the perfect thing to do or u wish to do? to others, it is a stressful thing for them, because no one is perfect and to have this endless cycle of trying to improve and going forward all the time feels like an endless marathon.



from a personal pt of view, someone with a perfectionist mindset is also stubborn in his thinkings. stubborn is somewhat the refusal to change in one's thinkings. it might sound contradicting to some, because how can one who seek to improve himself all the time be stubborn and refuse to change? because the fact that in most cases, there is no such thing as the best and perfect situation/action. However from the perfectionist pt of view, he has his own standard of what is the best/perfect thing and he treats other pt of view as imperfect or substandard to that of his. because of his relentless effort to keep going towards "the perfect thing", he often block out other viewpt. but how can there be a best/perfect all time? what do you mean by the "the best husband/boyfriend/girlfriend"? what does it consitute to be the best thing to do? it all varies depending on how one perceive of a situation and how one choose to have the outcome to be.

when one become open to change, he makes it an effort to see how others are perceiving things differently from him and understand why are they doing things the way they are. because of the fact that he make it a pt to understand, he can see why his way of thinking is not the best or why there can never be a best/perfect way.



i really hope that i will not continue to have this perfectionist mindset but a spirit of excellence.one that is open to change and receptive to others.i have been having this perfectionist mindset for as long as i can rem.



Renew my mind this day

it's only words and words are all i have to take your heart away.

Right i am feeling very hungry..going to eat dinner soon...just had durian pudding and puff from goodwood...super nice..oh no...i think i am going to get fat..haha..time to exercise...

talking about food, maybe i should gather some ppl who have the same cravings to go eat together...like

1)cheese
2)durians
3)chocolate


i know alot of places that sell super nice cheese cake, durian desserts and chocolate..suddenly feel like eating them...




alot of my fellow friends have been posting pic of their workplace, guess i will post some of my own..


cranes at my workplace..i can tell u they are HUGE! i never knew such big cranes existed..i mean they are like transformers! i feel like a ant next to them..haha..

some of the jack up rigs..with my fellow intern sherman in the pic..he look really lost..haha..

raining day...while we are "fast-marching" to our ship...look at the huge structures behind

a close up view of a jack up...look at the height..everytime i walk past..i imagine how will it feel like to jump off the top of the thing..LOL



some more jack up..they usually come with helipads

1000 tons crane..this is my favourite one..because of the size and the way it can traverse and translate...once i stand beside it and watch it move..amazing..and ya..it move on train tracks...of cos much bigger track than those MRT one you see...often reminds me of the superman cartoon i watch..with the lady being tied to the track and the machine going to run over her...a plot by the bad guy to try to bring superman down..haha...


the "heels" i wear to work..made me 181cm tall...haha..



feeling alittle bored...usually come home straight after work..realy bored..hopefully next week can get some friends to come out..lol...


went out with qizhi yuantai and zoe..had a great time fellowshipping.


something i drew with the leftover of mud pie we had...


smile an ever lasting smile
a smile can bring you near to me
don't ever let me find you gone
'cause that would bring a tear to me
this world has lost its glory
let's start a brand new story
now my love
you think that I don't even mean
a single word I say

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

talk in ever lasting words
and dedicate them all to me
and I will give you all my life
i'm here if you should call to me
you think that I don't even mean
a single word I say

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

da da da da da da da
da da da da da da da da da da
da da da da da da da
da da da da da da da da da da

this world has lost its glory
let's start a brand new story
now my love
you think that I don't even mean
a single word I say

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

it's only words
and words are all I have
to take your heart away

change my heart oh God

Change My Heart Oh God
Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

You are the potter
I am the clay
Mold me and make me
This is what I pray

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

been talking to QZ, can't imagine he proposed such things to me...hahaha..i shall go great world with you if you are keen...HAHAHA...i am may not like exotic stuff..haha...


imperfect...that's why i need even more of Your grace...

change my heart oh God, may i be like You

First day on ARV 1

Today i went on board ARV 1 for the first time. it is really a very different experience. ARV 1 is actually first of a kind vessel in the world. i can't really reveal what it does(nothing special really). but i really learn alot of new terms, like starboard, bow, stern, sea chest, sea pipe, draft gauge, decks, forward, hull etc..


the ship are huge... i was simply overswhelmed by their size when i walk past them...ppl usually cycle around because the place is simply too huge to walk( from my office to my ship requires me to walk for 10mins).


i guess this internship is more to familiarise me with the role i will be playing in future. it is all about meetings meetings and more meetings. there is VSCC( vessel safety committee crew ) meeting every morning 9am on deck 7. There is production meeting every tue and thur in the office. yesterday i went for the dry dock production meeting. i heard tml there is another meeting with the owner of the ship. i took alook at the schedule for this week and there is at least 10 meetings to attend! most of my time will be meeting and planning rather than walking around the ship.


to have a glimpse of wat i look like


here contain my helmet, my ID tags , my goggles, my gloves, my ear plug



there is also another safety harness for us


there is also a safety shoe for us to wear..supposely to be able to take a ton of weigh on each leg



and there! this is how i look like before i board any ship...look like bangla worker lor...haha...but i am wear this like 20% of the time, rest of the time i will be up in the office in my formal wear.




enough of intern, i finally rem to get my toner.


recommended by the sales lady. she initially wanted to intro me this $45 toner! guess it is too ex..esp when this is my first time using toner in my life.

1st day of intern

what a tiring day. slept for 5 hours the moment i got home. guess it will be a busy 3months ahead.

perhaps it is a good thing.

it is all my fault

i just suck sometimes..doing the wrong thing and affecting the wrong ppl..maybe it is just me....but u know i don mean it...there is no need to vouch for me or what so ever...what u see in me is what u get...simple as that.. i can't help it if ppl wanna think i got some motives for doing stuff..i am not really bothered..

but i got to admit i am not as good a friend should be? i really don noe what constitute one...i really don...i am doing the best i know how..and i really don noe that one mistake have such big repercussions...i am saying this because i treasure u as a friend...hiaz

what a great way to end the holidays


i need more of Your grace.

internship

holiday are officially over. sad to say i DEFINITELY did not have enough fun yet. i haven't had the sit-there-and-do-nothing-but-chill type of outing..maybe after my usual working time(on paper i end work at 4.15pm), i can ask a few friends out to chill. i just check out the night safari ticket pricing, it is $32 with tram ride. that is like so ex! not talking about the food and the cab fee u have to pay to get home after that.i guess i will leave that to the next holiday.


today is mother's day and some of my relatives will be coming over for steamboat. was hoping to have a hassle-free mother's day. just go out and have a good dinner and come home to prepare my stuff for tml intern. maybe i should head out for tennis with YT and YK at nus.


talking abt that, my right arm felt like it is going to dislocate. yesterday i was doing some exercise and practise abit on the muay thai moves. think i over extend my arm. woke up this morning with this pain on my right shoulder when i tried to pick up my bolster which have fallen to the floor.


great, my mum just asked me to mop the floor for her. time to burn some fats.

aeroplane fly high high II

i think my body clock is on overdrive. i slept at 2 plus 3 yesterday? and i am up at
7 to 8 plus? i thought i would ko after yesterday outing plus cg. but it does not seem so.


really like the song that is playing now. yes some ppl are going to call me an emotional freak..hahha...but hey i am sentimental..i think abt it, ppl usually call me there when they start to come here and read my outpourings. usually what i share here , i don really share with anyone but God. maybe it is the internet thingy, don really know why i do that. but it is for a moment, i don stay unhappy/down/upset for more than 4 hours or so.


maybe i am abit different.but i don really care much about how ppl feel..haha..it is impossible to please everyone! I alway believe if i stand before God and i can be accountable, i don have to be let everyone feel happy with whatever decision i made.


recently some strange advertising comment pop up, kinda feel intruded because i am not exactly comfortable with the content.well anyone know how to remove them?

2 more days to internship, got mixed feelings inside of me.i haven't got enough fun!

mmm...really feel like ice-skating! miss the time when i was into ice-skating. how skating feels like u are running on air, not much friction, just the wind brushing ur face and u see ppl zooming past u..but in the opposite direction...



finally i shot the plane down. but seriously i don noe if i did the right thing, how are things going to be in future? when we meet on mon, i am not going to feel that i did anything wrong.the word "executive" comes with a level of excellence, based on how u do things, u are falling way way below the level i expected. i am sorry, but if i don fight for who is rightfully mine , who will? hopefully the next person will not fly my aeroplane time and time. i seriously pray for one that is really "executive" level.

zoo outing

just came back from the zoo! it was pretty fun..thought not as exciting i expected it to be...there is no chance for u to hold python or kiss them..nor there is chance for u to sit with orang utan and play with them..most of the time i feel abit out of place....HAHAHHAHA..but well i think it is fate...anyway here are some pictures...i took till my batt ran out..that is how many pic i took...decided to post only picture of ppl here..




jus came back from cg and God really spoke to me..especially in the area of my weakness. how His grace is more than sufficient for me..shall not reveal much here..kinda private..that is the thing i like about cg meetings...place of agreement is a place of power..often it is also the place where God move mighty..


behold stands a great dam
strong as concrete and tough as steel
no weapons of any kind have broken through it
many have tried and many have failed
and sono one have broken through it

then came a small still voice of the God
who , with a key, unlocked a small opening on the dam
slowly but surely, water start pouring and the pressure enlarged the hole
then out came all the pain that u have gone thru
all the weaknesses , past failures and hurts


finally the dam is empty
ready to be filled

I'm going to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you

oh man i am going to leave for singapore zoo in about half an hours time! haven't been there for a long long while! hopefully it does not rain.


too bad ah meng is not around anymore...


i will definitely go fragile forest to have an upclose encounter with the bugs..

then the white tigers..then polar bear and hopefully i get to ride the elephants!!!jus hope they can withstand my weight..not to forget the animal shows!

some pictures that might stirr up ur interest to go to the zoo!








I'm going to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you, do you want to come along too too too

aeroplane fly high high

just came back from JB and man was i tired.

went there to have some good food and catch a show over there.of cos what is an outing without some shopping, gotten myself a pair of leather shoe for work, a puma shoe, a t-shirt each from diesel and body glove. i think i kinda caught a cold there..feel pretty sick when i got back.


then came the bomb when i reached back.kinda pissed me off.i wonder where is the promise. can't really be bothered .not really first time. think the expectation is getting lower and lower. shall not let it spoil my day.


starting work next week. really need to enjoy every precious moment before the routine working life starts.


i humbly bow before your majesty

idealist

some interesting personality test i took

All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:

Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.
Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.
Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

i am sam

i finally watched the movie and i think i cried like 3 to 4 times throughout the show..i mean it is not that i am getting too emotional but this show is an emotional show which makes u rethink about life. many times throughout the show i tried to shut myself off but it is quite hard to do so.i am simply drawn into the role by the brilliant acting.

this story is about how this intellectually-disabled father struggles to keep her daughter to himself and the challenges he faced along the way. this show is unlike others which is often loop-sided to either to the intellectually-disabled side or the reality of life. it is really well balanced.


i think perhaps i like films which allow me to take something with me after watching them.they don need to be alway emotional, like an inconvienent truth, day after tomorrow, beautiful mind, rocky series, remember the titans, the subsitutes , glory road and coach carter. after watching, they made me reflect about areas of life i have overlook or not think of.

if you are keen , do check out the movie website.

http://www.iamsammovie.com/

i am glad that i got the show.

SHOUT UNTO THE LORD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH

it is over and i can shout

I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE


HAHA..i am just glad it is over..it is time to have a good rest and have a good time of catching up with my friends...


i just watched IRONMAN..i must say..this is the BEST superhero show i ever watched..better than X-MEN...it is funny..it is exciting..it is packed with the right humour and the main lead is really suitable...charismatic and sauave...haha


jus got my "i am sam" DVD...really wanna watch but there is like 6 friends talking to me on msn...



it sure feels great to be able to sleep late and stuff..miss that feeling...



this exam period can be said and described by one word "exciting"

because in the midst some distraction came along..


not only that it is a period of stronger dependency on the LORD....listening to the worship songs and connecting with Him...it really really help me alot...


why did i name this entry "SHOUT UNTO THE LORD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH"?


because this is the sem i am most unsure abt my grades...it feels like everything is not that well....but well..i shall face it in a positive manner and

SHOUT UNTO THE LORD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH


for i believe the best is yet to come!

finally it is over

today i had the worst paper of the sem..it is call compressible and unsteady flow...if you are a mech eng student, try NOT to take that paper..it is really tough..i kinda feel i already BANKAI inside the LT..but my BANKAI is not enough..need to enter into hollow mode before i can be strong enough..but i guess i already done my best..rest is up to God...


really like the song that is playing now...it is like a prayer..a cry to God..used to sing during my QT when the album first came out...now i happen to chance upon..i am kinda listening to it very often...



Z told me something that makes me wanna faint..but i appreciate you for telling me and the things you told me make me kinda guilty..but i am the type you need to ask me then i will tell u..i will not automatically go telling ppl stuff..haha..even close ppl...so ya..if you ask, i will definitely say...pls take ur time...ur own time..don be in a hurry...





tml i am heading back to sch for the final weekend in biz lib...cos after today's horrible paper..i had the last one coming up this tue...shall blog abt the lecturer tml nite..he is one of the most interesting lecturer i ever had...haha...


i can't wait to watch iron man..forbidden kingdom..can't wait to lose weight..start training...start running..start eating healthy....i can't wait to relax....


Tue pls come...

Jesus

stressed = desserts