adultery

After reading the commentS from hh, i guess it is better for me to reply over here. Tag board are way way too small.


First thing first, Skull is NEVER an affliation of satanic force. You may feel that it is related to death, horror , past? i am not sure. To illustrate it clearly, what is satanic? 666 or the inverted cross( with Jesus)is. I think there too many self-imposed rules about what is "allowed" for christians and what is not. God never said you can't wear skull. But God did mentioned 666 is the mark of the devil.


This leads to the point of perception. Why would unbelievers think that way? This is simply due to the lack of knowledge and mis-informed ideas. Now, how do we know muslim can eat only halal food? Because they provided us with the informations and they practise it, hence we ,as non muslims, know about it. I guess this "misinformed" affliation is partly the faults of some christians.


Talking about adultery, firstly if i wear an artistic shirt and this can result in " It might cause others to go own the road of adultery". I would honestly, from the bottom of my heart say that the person committing that is just using me as an excuse. i got to admit everyone has a different tolerance of "art" but if the church would to stay away from the mildest form of "art"(then again, who sets the limit"), we will be "obsolete" in no time. This does not mean i purposely wear a sexually offensive shirt to "attempt" to tempt someone into adultery. i totally agreed with limits( like for kids ) but the pt i want to bring across is, let's not become too legalistic.

This again goes back to the idea of perception. If you are pure in your mind, a couple kissing might cause you to think about love, family etc.. to a defiled mind, even two numbers 69 can lead to oral sex( yes that's what some of my friends tell me!). So does the fault lies with the shirt or the person thinking that?


To sum it all, i would say let's not be "holier" than God and set all these self-imposed rules. As the churches around the world are moving towards having greater relevancy to the society, it is extremely important that we are not taking a step back by embracing these rules.

This link provide a much clearer explaination.

http://www.answers2prayer.org/bible_questions/Answers/legalism/legalism.html

Perception/ hope

http://philpringle.wordpress.com/2009/03/27/perception/

Excellent viewpoint. It really makes me realised alot of thing.

What a wonderful service today!! I was asking God for direction in life and He really spoke to me thru the service. It speaks exactly for my situation.

Exodus 8:22

And I will sever in that day the land of Goshen, in which my people dwell, that no swarms of flies shall be there; to the end you may know that I am the LORD in the middle of the earth.

The choice to dwell in God's land, the time period to step out in faith is short. Once you missed it, you will not have it again. Just like the exmaple he shared about the children of Israel, they missed the time to enter the promise land for their lack of faith and they will not go back anymore. I was particularly impacted by the way pst Phil said about going after the dream God has for us. " It is precisely when things are bad, that is why you need faith to do it. Why do you think the water is not still when peter walked on it? everyone knows still water is easier to walk on. It is because you need faith to reach the dream God has set before you. To go where not many people has gone." To have the faith to step out!



I was pondering what do people need most to live? is it money? is it love? is it support? is it human rights?


God gave me a revelation that it is Hope. Hope form the basis where Love takes you to great heights.

1 Corinthians 13:13

But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.


notice the trend, it is faith hope and love. Faith comes first then hope. You need to have faith in God before you can have Hope that all the promise that He said will come to pass. Once you go pass the faith and hope stage, you began to love those around you. This is the ultimate aim in life.

Have faith! Be hopeful! Love others!

The Express

It is 2am and i just finished watching this show, The Express. It is no doubt one of the best show i watched for the last one year. Inspiring and really stirrs me up.


In the show, the lead died in the end at a young age of 23. Although he died young, he did what normal people could not have achieved with their whole life time. A must watch!!

T shirt

My dear got me a real nice Tshirt from Affliction.



It is a signature tee for Chris Horodecki, an MMA fighter. Affliction has a habit of creating unique personal tee for fighters, be it boxers or MMA fighters. I got another one which is foiled. I kinda like the foiled tee because those cheap brands or imitations can't really produce the same effect and personally i feel they are different from normal tee! Thanks dear! I really really like the tee..ahah..the more i look, the more i like it.


I look into my cupboard and i realised i got 2 Affliction and 2 Ed hardy tee. Total value = $420. Shocking! wait a min, i got only 2 and that 2 is the cheapest among the 4. The rest are pressie from my darling! We decided we will not get such expensive stuff unless it is our bday! if not, we will eat grass..haha..I think i have more than enough of such tee. :> Can't wait to wear the new one this sat for service!


look into my eyes :>

Life

Life is unpredictable. Totally.


On a happier note, I had a day out with darling!! haha...went to sentosa for a short swim then head to vivo for dinner and movie. After movie, we went to the roof top for our present exchange. Cos it is like our 1st month anniversay! She got me a new Affliction shirt! And we agreed to budget our gift next time!!


This one month has been pretty ok....really glad for all the things that we went through. Hope to move onto something greater!! hehe..


Really tired now. Shall update tml!!

Love ya Darling!!

Tired

Here Comes The Sun - Bon Jovi

Slept the whole day...time to get some work done...

Before i go on...the new mouse show..





Don't look like a nice show.


Anyway when Wayne told me there is POS, i was really excited.


Then did i realised it is going to be a combined Uni one?!








" Huh Combine? disappointing la"



Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right

Run

Yesterday i went for a jog at the track across the road. I used to go there when i started to run a year back but decided to switch to running along pavement. However, yesterday my mood wasn't good and i decided to head back there and have a out-of-the-norm run.


The track is about 300m so to hit 5km , i need to run about 17 rounds. I usually run as fast as i cn for the first 8 rounds before enduring through the rest. The track is usually frequent by uncles and aunties and occasionally, younger and fitter runners.


Yesterday was one such day.


I was at my 12th round when i spot him stretching at one corner. His body is well toned and he looks fast. After my 13th round, he sort of disappear. I just kept running, faster, cos i don like the fact someone will overtake me.


At my 14th round, i heard footsteps behind. I knew instinctively it is him. I pick up my pace and refuse to let him over take me. I kept pushing and opening up my stride to gain speed.

But alas, he still overtook me. As i see his back view getting smaller and smaller, i still persisted on. trying to get as close to him as possible.


As i completed my 17th round, i didn't managed to catch up with him. But it doesn't matter. In life there is good days and bad days, some days you lose some days you win.I still felt good because i know i did my best. Perhaps after a few month of training, even under the same condition, i might be able to prevent him from overtaking me.


What matters most is not how i started the race, but everytime how i choose to end it.


Giving my best for His clory.

teenager in love

Each time we have a quarrel
It almost breaks my heart
'Cause I'm so afraid that we will have to part

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

One day I feel so happy
Next day I feel so sad
I guess I'll learn to take the good with the bad

'Cause each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

I cried a tear for nobody but you
I'll be a lonely one if you should say we're through
Well if you want to make me cry
That won't be so hard to do
If you should say goodbye
I'd still go on loving you

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

I cried a tear for nobody but you
I'll be a lonely one if you should say we're through
Well if you want to make me cry
That won't be so hard to do
And if you should say goodbye
I'd still go on loving you

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love

Heard this song while playing Guitar hero. I got 2 different version on my hp!! it is quite nice cos i can listen to the song i play. nice!

Anyone?!

Just feels weird...


Really feels like going to sungei buloh to take some pictures and enjoy the nature.. Enjoy the trees and flowers and the different interesting animals that might pop up...


Really feels like joining POS and throwing some girls...Have a great work out and put up a top performance...to give our best smile and blow the house down...


Really feels like catching tons of movies and enjoy every single of them...the excitment of watching the different shows..the different experience...


Really feels like hitting the beach..go play some volleyball and kick some waves...Sun tan and enjoy the Sun, Sea and Sand...


Really feels like asking a large group of friends out for an outing...to do something we really like...



Really feels like playing some basketball, captain's ball or anything physical...team sports particularly....




Can't help but really feel like doing all these!

Today

Sometimes you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and you know in your mind it is not going to be good. You feel "the heat" in you rise up and you wanna let off some "flame" on someone.

I do have such days too but i always remind myself that my bad day does not means that i got to make others have a bad day too. To stay happy and positive is always a choice. A choice that you make the moment you wake up at the beginning of the day.


Smile. Today is another great day. :>

Great

Firstly, thank God for the good results. Got full marks for my Financial accounting test. out of the class, i am one of the 3 who got full marks.

Secondly, thank God for Zoe conference. It was awesome! God's tangible presence is soo real.

I was reminded of my dream again. God is soo amazing. Year 1 my results was really soso...third class. But somehow, my dream died and got ressurected again. It was then and there, something broke through and there was not turning back . Today, after 2 dean's list and a mid second upper class of honours, i can look and amazed at how God put me through.


Through this period, i learnt alot of things. For one, don't be too affected by what others will say.This apply to everywhere. When i tell people i wanna get into dean's list, they laugh (not all but some). It doesn't hurt me. Why? IT IS MY DREAM. It doesn't matter what they say. I just stay focused, run my course and look to God!


Somewhere somehow people will come and give u a kick and run off. Stay cool and focused. There will bound to be such people. For me, IT DOESN"T MATTER. Cos i am running my dreams not theirs. They can say all they want.


In God I trust, the rest all needs statistics.

sian

Today i felt like da bian. Maybe because i am too tired. sian.

PhD

Was talking to my mum regarding my PhD application. Even though they give me their full support yet i don feel good using their money.Yes, i will be paid every month and can contribute to the monthly income, pay off my insurance and my bank loan but yet i don feel myself fulfilling the duty which i should.I need the full assurance of God before moving in.


Truely, if you like research and you can do PhD, especially in life science, chemistry etc. The sky is the limit. There is no where you can't go. I seriously don't know about engineering but after the talk by A*star, you can feel and understand how these people went from a common grad to an outstanding cream of the crop. I got a feeling i am going to love my job as a researcher. Having no same day and doing different things everyday. I shall take one step at a time.


keep praying and keep believing.

This week had been tiring! Busy with FYP report, busy with financial accounting test, busy with post graduate studies and meeting up with different professors to talk about it.

At the end of this week, i finally got a glimpse of what i should do. As God's thoughts are higher than ours, I guess i really thank God for the idea which i never really thought of until yesterday. I am praying for a deferment from sembcorp and the scholarship to come NUS. Of cos, i will need to find a good professor who can help me and provide me an interesting project.



Thanks to my dear Myrna who is alway there to hear me analyse about what to do. oooo...her birthday is coming next wed!! next fri is my Fyp draft report submission!! and next fri is also the deadline for Post graduate studies application! Next week i need to meet at least 3 prof to get the testimony from them and also talk about their projects. Siong.


of cos, I can't wait for the 25th to come. Wanna do something really fun! ")


Back to my thesis!

Falling and staying in love

Today I had my FNA lecture and without fail, my lecturer will make us laugh with his jokes and also sometime informative powerpoint which is outside the course he is teaching.

Today he explained to us how people fall in love and stay in love. Basically there are 2 main chemicals which help us experience love and keep us loving with our partners.

Falling in love- Dopamine
- this is the drug which make us feel like we are in heaven and makes us have alot of energy but require us to rest very little. Its effect is close to that of some drugs but with no side effects. However this chemical typically last only for 4 years.


Then how do boy-girl friends and married couple stay together after 4 years?


Staying in love- Oxytocin
- this is the chemical that makes us have a sense of bonding and connectedness. This is the chemical that keeps married couple and long term couples together even when the effect of Dopamine is gone.



At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter what chemical is reponsible for what or when it will use up. What matters is the need for each of the partner in the relationship to keep contributing to the relationship and keep stimulating the production of these love chemicals.


Let's run together!

"Fresh" Graduate

Was talking to some of my friends on my way back from church and we were debating on why so many fresh graduatse from Uni can't seems to find jobs. While it is true that the eonomy is bad, however it seems the problem isn't that bad for poly graduates or ITE graduates.

We do agree on 2 points.

1)The Economy is bad.

This isn't the best time to graduate or would i say, this ISN'T the time to graduate at all! Uni graduates not only compete with one another but also those kena retrenched with experiences under their belt!

2)The "fresh" mindset.

Alot of companies are actually hiring. It is just that people refused to work for them. To put it frankly, we feel we are "up" one level and this job is not "suitable" for us. I got admit this is a real problem. Personally, i don like sales job. Even sales engineer, to me, i feel you study so much to do sales?! might as well go poly and then go be sales engineer after that. Having to speak to so many of my friends, many of them are actually quite picky even till now. Don't want teacher, don't want army, airforce or navy, don't want hardcore engineering, don't want shipyard, don't want alot of OT one, must be office based, hopefully town area, cannot jurong island, want bigh companies, want to pay well, want to have good bonus, cannot wear lab coat on, cannot have outdoor, cannot this cannot that.

I guess at the end of the day, we need to look at ourselves.

So what if we are Uni graduate? NUS alone, produce 20k Uni graduate per year!

Yes 20k! I am not even 0.001 of the cohort!
I think i really need to manage my expectation and re-evaluate the way I look at my bond..


This sort of give me a reality check.

Finish Strong

Nice Video posted by stephanie.

Finish strong!

Permanent Head Damage

Just came back from PhD talk.

I am TEMPTED!

Firstly of all, i have a 95% of getting the scholarship.Spoke to the Prof MO Lai and he told me in exact words, " You will definitely get it. We will give it to you."
Sound like some free gift.Now I am at a dilemma. I need to fulfill my bond.

Interest aside

Option 1: Stick with my bond
- Get paid about 2.8k a month, get a few month bonus at the end of the year. Spend my time in shipyard under the sun( that is a plus point actually). Start my career off as a scholar.

Option 2: Go for PhD
- get paid 2.3k a month for a month or so then increment to 2.8k after 1 to 2 years. Graduate (hopefully) with a PhD. Starting paid expected, 4.5k a month. Depending on where i go, perhaps as a lecturer etc, i might earn more as a starting pay. No bonds.


Mmmmm...need to pray for wisdom and advice from people. actually, i am hoping more for option 3


Option 3: Go for both
- apply for deferment till i graduate with a PhD and go back serve my bond. In the mean time, i survive on the stipend from NUS.



If option 3 really come to pass, i will be REALLY Happy. Grad with a PhD and with a job ready! That is like a dream come true!

Well, actually i am ok with going back to work. But one thing KH said that struck me is that, "if you can go for something higher and better, why not?" I guess it is not about the Dr or the pay but more of realising my potential!


Keep me strong!

Lovely!

Today meeting with my Prof is the best so far. I think he is ok with what i have done and told me to stop doing anymore simulations. After looking at the results, he seems satisfied and gave some suggestions for my report.

After that he proceed to praise my Laptop --_-- and even talk about computer stuff.

Then he said,

"Well i know M.O.Lai is giving out scholarship for PhD, will you be interested?....blah blah.."

For a moment today, i was tempted.

I mean I never thought of doing a Phd, maybe a Masters. But with the numerous emails being sent out, i am starting to consider.

Mmmm... Dr Titus Seow sounds pretty good..haha...



Anyway..today I chance upon her!

Uehara Takako!!!!


WAAAA!!!!!!!! 0.0


SOOO Pretty!!!!!


she was my teenage years idol. If you guys know the band Speed, you will know she is the prettiest member in it! She is popular in Japan still after all these years!!Anyway Speed has reunited again!

Even after all these years, she still makes my heart pound!!!

Ok time to take a break! been doing Fyp ever since I got home!

FYP = Finish Your Prof

After the stabbing incident yesterday morning, the headlines for all the newspaper today no doubt were on the indonesian chinese student from NTU. Most of my friends were saying that he should have at least killed the prof before committing suicide, others either commented on their msn or facebook that they wonder if their prof will wear armour, learn martial art or resort to video conferencing.

From a FYP student pt of view, i must say that some prof really cmi. You try your best to contact them, they don care about you. When the project is ending, they realised that you didn't do what they want, they threaten to fail you or ask you to redo. I am not saying that all the prof are like that, but there are those black sheep out there. Being in Engineering means there is a certain degree of stress, i have seen peeping Tom peeping on Tom , throwing incidents, people go bonkers while in engine faculty. I guess that poor guy snapped when he just couldn't take it, who knows what the prof said to him? perhaps he gave too much to that poor guy and he just snapped? *shrug*

Now FYP has a new meaning

Finish our Prof!

FYP KILLS!

Who says FYP can't kill you?

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/412450/1/.html


Poor kid.