Ain't no mountain high enough

Listen, baby
Ain't no mountain high
Ain't no vally low
Ain't no river wide enough, baby

If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

Remember the day
I set you free
I told you
You could always count on me
From that day on I made a vow
I'll be there when you want me
Some way,some how

'Cause baby,
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

No wind, no rain

My love is alive
Way down in my heart
Although we are miles apart
If you ever need a helping hand
I'll be there on the double
As fast as I can

Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you

Don't you know that
There ain't no mountain high enough
Ain't no valley low enough
Ain't no river wide enough

Something you might wanna know

I shall began the blog with this extremely, very and confirm important question.
















When was the last time you went for a holiday that was so enjoyable that you forgot what you need to do and you have helluva time?

Think about it. The answer is below. It will reveal what kind of person you are.Remember to think first!.















































While you were thinking...

did you eyes (a) went up, (b)down or (c)to the sides??

I don't think someone's eyes went to the centre(cock eyes) so i will not give that option.






Where did your eyes went tells alot about you.




(a)Visual

You are a visual person. How you recall stuff and learn new things is through images.you remember the holiday by the images you form in your head. you remember stuff by remembering what you see. Sometimes your good memory is call photographic memory. You are attracted to the opposite sex by the way they look and dress.



(b)Emotions

You are an emotional person. You look towards your gut when you wanna recall some stuff. Your favourite phrases are always, " I feel, He gives me a xxx feeling, She seems to be xxx". You rely more on the instinct people give and you remember stuff through the feelings you had at that moment. You are attracted to the opposite sex by the character they portray {bubbly, funny, serious).



(c)Audio

You are a microphone-kinda of person. You look towards your ears when you wanna recall stuff. You remember best by using noise/sound/music/toneage of the situation. You are likely to be a music lover because audio play an important part in your life.
You are attracted to people who are good at speaking, presents themselve well, speaks with confident and express everything well.





Usually a person will have 2 dominant types. Personally I am Visual and Emotion type.


So what are your types? Is it accurate?? To test, think about it and then scroll down.


























where did your eyes went again? ;p

Movies about me!!

Some movies about *Aaahemm* ME

Office

Right now i am at office slacking.

FYI, i have 2 more days before i end my internship.

Mmm...just wondering why to do for the coming one week. i will be jamming my morning with driving lessons after which one of the days i will be heading down to SIR building to have my name change.


There are a few places i feel like going, like night safari..blu jazz cafe..changi hospital..sentosa( feels like going for one or two more times)..jb..zouk...Catch some nice MOVIES!


*pondering*

The love Guru

Total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart



Recently a few people came to me and ask me for advices on their relationships.


of cos, it is not the normal type of relationship.


Being the friendly guy, I will try my best to give the best advice i could.


But you guys must understand I am NOT attached.Hopefully you all take what i advise you with a pinch of salt.LOL.


"why so serious?"

The Joker

I just came back from watching "The Dark Knight".The Joker is really insane. If you look carefully at certain scenes, you will notice that there is this look in his eyes.This look that he is struggling and he is losing it.( ok i am guessing it) But it is either his acting is sooo good that it gives me this feeling or he is really slowly losing it in the movie.Maybe i should watch the show again just to make sure i din't see wrongly.


In someway i can relate to him, sometimes when i want to win sooooo badly,( like during exams), i turn my stress into wild thoughts.I don't know how to explain it, but somehow this wild thought will give me temporary ecstatic feeling! This feeling i can do anything. This feeling that I have power and control. LOL. If you carefully think about it, the joker alway talk about "not in the plan, out of control, chaos" He ,in fact, wants control by creating chaos to break the control others have.


Sometimes people don't just want the truth, sometimes people just want to have their truth rewarded.

Total eclipse of the heart

Dreams

Sometimes somewhere somehow, the voice of discouragement starts to affect you.

It makes you forget what you have and keep reminding you what you don't have.


Today i reflected on what i have to my name.

Gender : male
Age : 24
Asset :- $24,000( upon completion of studies from NUS)
Achievements : Dean's list once.Tells very good ghost stories.




somehow i got stuck at the achievements part. Half way round the globe, people younger than me are earning millions! I am approaching a quarter of a century old and i dont seems to have achieve anything yet.

i would say i am a visionary.I have dreams of what i hope to achieve. I have set them and it seems they are getting further and further.I can't wait to graduate and start working.


then


i was reminded that life isn't about what you have achieved.

As much as i want to "make it big", Life becomes significant when you change something down history.


Of cos , that doesn't mean you do nothing and achieve nothing.



Therefore, i realised that my dreams got to be bigger than what i am having now.Much Much bigger..



Dream Big, Live Strong, Impact Many and Change the World

Aden

Today i understoof how hard it is to be a dad.Especially when your kid is still young.

Presenting

Aden!
He is my cousin's son.Less than 2 months old and i think he is really cute.I tried to capture him when he is at his cutest, when his mouth is open.

This is his mom feeding him some milk while we had our buffet at lerk thai.This is my first outing with them.It is really hard work to bring this little thing out.Got to prepare diapers, hot water, hot milk, a set of clothing, towel, jacket, pacifier, cap and his shoes!

Presenting the proud daddy! Ordering the food while his little one is drinking milk



And there he goes, resting his head on daddy's chest while mummy grab a bite.He is a really obedient boy, seldom do you hear him cry.He is alway so well-behaved.



There goea another open mouth shot.I was playing with him and trying to make him smile.He kept trying to "talk" to me.


And there is the "prince" resting on his legs on his mummy leg.




This is one really good experience.I tried holding him and he is like jelly.I couldn't really carry him and he is like so soft and i am worried that i might injuried him! LOL.Halfway through the meal he actually pass motion! oh man, it is like so disgusting! haha...It is not easy being a young parent and i really envy my cousin and his wife.They never regretted having the kid and it certainly bought much joy to the whole household.



Someone say i look 18?!?!? i mean HUH?

special

This week has been great.Bro Darren came and preach the word and it impacted me so much.It really reminds me of how i have came so far.Be it in my results, or the way i do things or the way i choose to relate to people, success is not about giving your 100% but your 101%.


I was reminded by a good friend of mine who once told me about choosing the right partner in life.She told me i have been choosing the wrong type of girls. Perhaps it is some wrong mindset i have but i kinda reflected on it and realised she is in a way right.Fastforward many weeks, I know God intended the best for me. The best as in the most suitable, not perfect. There is no reason for me to go for someone who needs help rather i should focus on going for someone who is ready.Thanks for whatever you told me, you have certainly changed my mindset.

I am enjoying every single moment of life.

The painful truth from the Doctor

I can't recall the last time I went to a doctor expecting something bad from him.

I was contemplating whether to make the trip.I got to admit, I was afraid.I was pretty afraid.


In the end i figure it out that the problem will NOT go away on its own.I need to face up to it.


I don't think i told anyone about it before deciding to make a trip to the doctor.



I recall my steps were heavy and my breathing got abit heavier as i saw the clinic in sight.


In my mind, my brain was chanting.

" you got to go, you got to go."




I took a deep breathe and close my eyes for a brief moment.






I approach the counter and register with the nurse.There were 2 people before me.one already went in and the other was looking down on the floor.My stomach felt like there is a rat running around. I kept looking at my phone, playing with the slider and looking at some pictures I took.








After 15 mins








Doc: "It looks bad.I think you might need surgery."

Me: "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" *Eyes widen in shock

Doc: "Ya. But still, it all depends on how things turn out in the next few days.It is the make or break period for you." *still looking

Me: *In my mind...."ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I don't want a surgery!!"

Me: " Is there any other way?"

Doc: " Well , you came abit too late. When you spotted a problem, be it any health problem, you should come as soon as possible for a check up.Not when things got out of hand. I will do what I can, hope it is not too late."




I diligently did what i was told for the next 3 days.I tried not to let fear grip me and constantly praying for a speedy recovery.






And Thank God!








I did not have to remove my wisdom tooth! :):):):):):)

I'll be loving you forever

I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still, forever,


You are the sun,
You are my light,
And you're the last thing on my mind,
Before I go to sleep at night,
You're always round,
When I'm in need,
When trouble's on my mind,
You put my soul at ease,

There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,

{repeat chorus}


We've had our fun,
We've made mistakes,
But who'd have guessed along that road,
We'd learn to give and take,
It's so much more than I could have dreamed,
Cause you make loving you, so easy for me,

There is no one in this world,
Who can love me like you do,
That is the reason that I,
Wanna spend forever with you,

{repeat chorus}


And girl I pray you leave me, never,


Cause this is the world, where lovers often go astray,
But if we love each other, we won't go that way,
So put your doubts aside,
Do what it takes to make it right,
I love you, forever, no-one can tear us apart,


I'll be loving you forever, (forever)
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart, (took my heart girl)
And tore it apart, (you tore it apart now)
{repeat again}


I would love you still, forever,
I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you leave me never,
Even if you took my heart,
And tore it apart,
I would love you still,forever


An old song which i used to like when i was a youth.haha.


Today my mum was trying to drive to me that getting married young is good.

some of the reasons she used..

"You know things are getting more and more expensive. If one don't get married early, it will get more and more expensive to get married."

" unless you are super rich, get married early is good because everything is cheaper..even when you have kids, it is cheaper to "maintain" them"


For the 15 mins i was foaming my body, face and hair, i felt like i am going to be forced into marriage!

Now i can finally understand how V and S felt!

LOL!

What is wrong with Samsung Omnia?

Two days ago, i bought my Samsung Omnia.

And if you know me, i am a person who will research and consider carefully before making a decision.

Yet somehow i miss some stuff sometimes.

Today i sold my Omnia and made some profit(i continued my plan). Some of my friends asked me to review the Omnia. I won't be saying how good Omnia is, i mean it is an awesome phone with huge memory(16G) , huge LCD(3.2inch, bigger than iphone 3G) , awesome camera( 5MP, not all high MP camera are good but this phone produce great pictures!) and i think it has the business look and it got a different "flavour" as iphone 3G.Iphone 3G is more like for kids and teenager, Omnia is for Man.


However, nothing in this world is perfect.Here are some reasons why NOT to get Omnia.

1.Software problem.

When starting the camera in the portray mode, you will notice a "stuck" pixel at the top left corner of the screen.I changed a new set and it is still there.Well you might say i am picky but i guess it is an eyesore.

After taking 3 pictures, i couldn't start the camera at all! an error msg keep appearing.Despite having close all the task and making sure i selected the right memory to save my pictures, the error is still there! The only way is to on and off the phone.It happened to me thrice today.Imagine you trying to snap "the moment" type of picture, having to restart the phone for me is a big nono.


2.Vibrator.

Yes , the vibrate-when-you-touch-the-screen function is good.But even if you touch in between the icons it will still vibrate! meaning nothing will happen and it vibrate! I mean it is to notify you that you touch and activated something, not when you touch the screen! it is a good innovation step but need some tweaking.

While the vibrate-when-you-touch-the-screen function gives a good vibration, but the intensity of the vibration is the same as when someone call you or sms you! i had a few missed call because of that. I might have missed the function to increase the intensity but the chances are low. I have tried looking for it for the whole day!

3.Messenging.

Perhaps i am not used to it but the "button" layout and font size of the Omnia is really bad.The size of the font when choosing who to send the msg to is really bad.It is sooo small, half the size of my nokia n81 font!.I mean the screen is 3.2 inches they should make the font bigger!

Ya i mis-sent 10 msg today! because the send button is located jus below the pad at the left corner! can u imagine u holding the hp and trying not to mistype( it is very hard not to mis type without the stylus, O2 phone and iphone perform much better in this area), i kept accidently press the send button and poooh, i send a grubbish msg to someone.Trust me, it will happen to you at least once if you get the phone.



Don't get me wrong.Omnia is a phone with awesome functions. However, i believe Details determine destiny.While it is true the functions and specifications will blow you away, there is some minor tweakings needed to make it a good phone. Think about ipod.It does not have radio or speaker yet it outsold the zen.True, the look is great but it is more of the ease of use that propel it to greatness.I personally feel that Omnia have missed the detail to make it a truly good phone.

Fixing a broken heart

There was nothing to say the day she left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can`t cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Ever could understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Cause of the hurt just disappears
In every moment you are near, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can`t cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
Let's I'll forget the past
'cause here we are at last

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can`t cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart



What a nice song.


It is alway important to fix your own broken heart.The lyrics are crap! When you are heart broken, don't depend on someone else except God to fix your heart.Because emotions cloud judgement,Don't tempt your heart when it is at it's weakest.


It is easier said than done. Emotions can be such powerful tools but yet many become slaves to it. Even though I am a very rational person, I still have to keep reminding myself of things to let go and how to move on.We are created to have feelings and emotions but if we don't know how to control them, we could do things that are abnormal and perhaps damaging to relationships.


I have calculated that I have roughly 394200 hours to live( 45 years X 365days X 24 hours ) excluding leap years and if i die at age of 70. I seriously want to have a heaven-on-earth kind of experience.Many time I would try my best to let go and let God and letting go of hurts should be a daily thing to do.




God is the strength of my heart.

SPoOkY

I think I can tell very good ghost stories.


I think I am so good, I can think of a ghost story of any theme, be it school setting, house setting, camp setting, bus stop setting, you name it, I tell it.


It is like I can have a very clear picture of what i want to say and i can bring it to life.For horror stories, i alway imagine a scary setting and i jus let my imagination run wild.I will push the limit and try to think of the scariest possible scenerio.It become so scary that sometime i feel abit spooked even though i thought of the stories myself.


If anyone want to listen to me narrate my horror stories, Please call me.

I will be more than happy to spook you out.






































BOO!

Artistic shots

Faith

Even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall, I will stand with you.

Fool again

i am going to sleep in about 15 mins time.i have not slept for the last 24 hours.This is the second time this week i am having an overnight affair.just waiting for my hair to dry first.

Right now i am sitting in my room, watching the sun rising up slowly.I was thinking about life when i was on my way back.I mean i KO in the train but while walking back, i calculated the "cost" and i realised that I am getting further and further from my dream.

Perhaps I have went through some tough time, i have in a way "shut down" unknowingly.Before you think i am some emo freak, i can tell u i am not.I know what is real and i am ready to face it.I have develop some bad habits which i hope i can change.

One of the worst habits i have formed is that i no longer trust people that easily.Perhaps i am sick of the heartache,like the song , i am fool once too many.LOL.I have keep a distance even from my closest friend.I don't think i have a best friend on earth.Alot of personality test have said that my best friend will be that of my spouse.I guess that is as close as i allow someone to get near to.I need to gain trust again.Many people may see me laugh and joke in the crowd, but honestly, how many people can say they know me well?


The good thing about life is that there is alway God.God will turn it around for me.Fasting really does wonder.Not only i have flat-ter tummy, i have learn to control my fleshy nature better.


We haven't spoke for sometime.Perhaps it is because i don't want to do anything wrong or have anything bad happen to any of us.Maybe it is not the time, i can only pray.


Time to hit the bed.It is beckoning out for me!

Appreciative

I need to slow down and observe the scenery.


I need to be less goal orientated and be more appreciative of those around me.


I was praying quietly while traveling on a bus for my driving lessons.I was asking God why do i feel "out-of-place" ? He reminded me of the things i have been missing out in.

I need to be more appreciative.



or rather


I should be more appreciative.

mighty mice

Thinking of starting something new.

Something that see life from a new point of view.

Not your average what-happened-then-i-come-home-write-down type of blog.

More of I-need-to-change-my-perspective-so-convince-me type of blog.



Tomorrow is fasting day for me.Same for every mon and fri.Time to get things right.



how are you doing?Hope everything is ok.Not talking doesn't mean angry.It just mean I don wanna do anything wrong.



Good to hear that you are attached.Stay happy! Friends forever.Try to not let him dislike me!LOL



I think i should not try to force you.I get the msg.I shall do what is best then.


Thanks for taking me in when i was lost.Thanks for alway making the effort to bring out the best in me.I am grateful that God put someone like you in my life


Can't wait for you to be back! have a great time with your princess.LOL.We shall go for supperS when you are back!

Random

What a nice song! All thanks to qizhi who kinda intro me the song.nice and catchy tune.

Today i just got news that i can't make it for The Happening Camp.Upon hearing that i am leaving in 3 weeks time, she suddenly throw me alot of things to do.haha, my fellow interns and i felt like oranges, they wanna squeeze us dry.


This week I got "counselled" by two old friends of mine regarding relationship.All i can say is, I am taking a passive stand, watching and enjoying the moment.


Holidays are ending really soon.In about 3 to 4 weeks time, i will be entering my final year.I was sitting on clement's car and talking about yester-years where we were still year 1 and year 2, the POS times.Time passes so quickly and i feel it is running through my fingers!


Life is all about choices. It is very important that you choose correctly.


For me, i choose to be simple.

built to last

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

zo lang ai zai

O man, i am so excited now...


Updates...


first thing first...there is a group of people singing " How great is our God" now! 12.05am! I can hear them...hahaha...

I will be giving BS to mark..will be giving him "Christian lifestyle"...ahah.so Excited!! It has been a while since i preached


Today service is sooo good!


At the end of the service, Pst told us to close our eyes and imagine the dreams we had.I stood, with the offering envelope in my hand, i began to have an image being formed.

I was wearing a suit...driving a Lexus..a black one in fact.and behind me is this penthouse...and i saw her! I seriously don't know why she suddenly pop out again! then there is 2 kids running around.

The presence of God is so strong and i really wished we could stay and worship longer.The good thing about being the last service of the day is that it is not that rush.Service got extended to 8pm and almost everyone stayed on.



Sentosa here i come!

take all of me

The happening

My eyes widen...





then my jaw actually dropped alittle...





I swallowed my saliva..





I rubbed my eyes many time...






I really couldn't believe it....





I mean...The happening is actually happening?!






It NEVER happened before and now it is?!







oh man!I REALLY want to be part of it!










It will be happening from the 21th to 23th July!




Come and be DE happening crowd!

Beach

Imagine you are on this beach now, relaxing and enjoying the sun and the sand alone.

I would love to do that.Sitting on the beach wearing my aviators and sun tanning.I don't really have to do anything.Just sit there and relax for a few hours.Perhaps i will drop by sentosa tomorrow and enjoy a tan before cg.


toothache and headache go away

Finally *shouting* IT IS OVER!

Finally it is over! I must say it is The most tiring 3 days and 2 nights of exercise i ever had.Even during my NS(National Slave)days, it was not that tough.The conditions of the stuff i was in charge of were so bad that i am constantly on the move to recover them or tow them back to camp.But i am glad it is over.Because all the new friends i made, it make the whole experience so much better! haha...2 more days and i will complete my first high key ICT!


For the last few nights, without fail, my reservice friends have been disussing about the ghost stories of our camp.If you all know me, you know i can tell ghost stories very well.And i meant VERY well.The stories i heard from them really shocked me! i mean it is really spooky.I rem one of the night i woke up at 2am and i am afraid to go toilet after hearing the stories! It was horrible!

And I can't wait to share them with others!HAHA


In my mind i am already thinking of what to do this weekend, i feel like a bird set free..ahha.i want to watch movies and i wanna do something fun, different and interesting! Best if it is exciting.

My family

Today i had a funny conversation with my mom.We were discussing about this weird friend of hers who just called her.Then she proclaimed that alot of our neighbours told her that they were surprised to know her friend's son is actually an undergraduate.Then she go on to mention that my dad and her don't look like people whose kids are undergraduates.


in her exact words, she said,

" Who would expect us to have kids who go uni? look at our faces and our background people also don't believe."


Indeed, it wasn't easy having come all the way to where my sis and i are at now.My family is below average income family and my dad had only P4(incomplete) education and my mom P3.While i was growing up, it is hard to understand why my friend's dad drives big cars while mine drove lorry.It is also hard to understand why i never gotten anything for my birthday.sometimes not even a cake.Even ss i slowly grew up and understood the picture, things didn't really improve.Friends around me starts to get richer and had better family backgrounds and i often feel inferior to them.perhaps it is because of my poor command of english as compared to them or because of the luxury goods they could afford, i feel i am different from them.



The turning point came when i was in secondary school.I recalled i often think about my future and how i want to be.Thank God for my teachers.They often motivate me and tell me i could be all i want to be , regardless of what background i come from.I began working hard and I meant really hard.Because my foundations are not good, i need to work doubly hard and I learn to set my standards high.I would do above and beyond what is necessary and be the best I know how.I want to be the best.


Fast forward many years, I wouldn't say i have made it, but i can proudly say that i did my best and my parents are proud of me.I am not ashamed to say that my dad still drives a lorry but a bigger and better one.They still work hard to support my studies as well as my sister's.And of course their education level still remain unchanged.

One thing that certainly have changed over the years is my outlook of life.I really thank God for the family He gave me to mold me into who i am today.I thank God for the people he placed in my life, be it those who despites me or those who encourages me, I can never be who i am without them.


Now.........

I believe the sky is the limit for me!

Deliverance

Today we had a ministering service with Pst Mike and as usual, it is filled with people screaming, crying and people getting delivered.It was not as "major" as last year as most of the church staffs are not around but nevertheless, God still move powerfully in the service.


like what he said

"Imagine yourself to be in a house with many rooms.You are standing at the entrance of the house and you are looking at all the rooms.Some of the rooms are locked while some of them are opened.Those that are locked contain things that you never want to reveal again.Today you need to go back to these rooms and unlock them.Jesus will be accompanying you and He will be there to help you through it. You need to unlock them."



I went through the house.There was no locked doors.Just some are harder to open.I really thank God for being there for me all the time.i thought abt her and realised that i have finally let go and not hold to it.You can tell the difference because you no longer hate or dislike the person but you just wanna care for her.

I recall things abt her too.It still take some time but it is more or less gone.I have lifted her up to God.


I somehow had a revelation of God's love for people.I couldn't really describe it in words but He wants me to have the human touch in whatever i do.It is more than going according to what is right and what is wrong but rather go beyond that and love people.John 3:16 never felt the same as before.



I want to be happy.I want to be fun.I want to be caring.I want to shine for Jesus!

Issues of the heart

Just reached home after cg..i am feeling soooooooooo tired after the battelion exercise. Whatever can go wrong, went wrong. This coming mon there will be another one and i really hope things will go smoothly.


today cg msg was on "issues of the heart".Emotions are very powerful tools. They can allow you to perform above more what you can normally do.Like how sportsmen will motivate themselves before a race and try to use emotions to help them reach another level.However, if there is no control, you can become a servant to them.Like how a person can go totally out of control when he lets anger rule and like i alway said, emotions cloud judgement.Don't be a servant to your emotions!

i am becoming "brown" from all the trainings and IPPTs i took.Can't wait for my ICT to end. I REALLY feel like going for a short trip before school starts...



right now i just want to have a good night rest. I am so tired!

Dean's list

Just book out for nights out and i am going in at 10 plus again.Tml is the day i will try to get silver for my IPPT.Really hope i can get it.Anyway i gotten an email regarding the dean's list and i am surprised by the names i see inside.I was expecting more people but i guess it is like 5% of the cohort and i see a few familiar names inside.I really need to thank God for the good results this sem. Although people might think it is pure hard work but it is really God's strength that leads me through. The peace of God was with me and i often pray whenever i feel stressed out and the company of church friends really help. This will be the last sem i am eligible for dean's list and i really really thank God that He gave me the chance to get it.All Glory to Him!


i am thinking hard on how my life will be for the next few years.Hopefully i can get my FYP choice.I guess in terms of financial, i will be taking up tuitions. Preferably physics and nearer to school or my house, need to save some money.Aiming to get my license by the end of this year, hopefully by october.I am not ashamed to say that i am looking for the right one to come along.haha. Of course i hope that i can grow stronger in the Lord, to head in where He wants me to go.To become a better person and more spiritual too.



Oh ya, this coming resolution is different from the usual one.


I want to be more happening.I wish to be more thrilling.I hope to be more exciting.I want to be more fun to hang out with.


i feel i am holding back most of the time.Sometime i will think of all the wild things that i want to do and all the fun i wish i can have.Especially when i am getting older , i really want to have fun and more fun before i become old.Maybe i kinda think through, it is time to let go alittle more and have more and more FUN!


YES I WANT TO HAVE MORE FUN!

Steve Job

You can't connect the dots looking forward, you got to connect the dots looking backwards. So you got to trust somehow the dots will connect for your future.Because believing the dots will connect down the road, will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well-worn path and that will make all the difference.

Steve Job on looking back at what he went through and how it lead to where he is now.(Which in my opinion is trusting that God has the best planned out for you!)



Sometimes life is going hit you on the head with a brick, don't lose faith.


Steve Job on failure




Remembering that you are going to die is the best way i know to avoid the trap of thinking that you got something to lose. You are already naked, there is no reason not to follow your heart.


No one wants to die. Even people who wants to go to heaven don't want to die to get there.


Death is very likely the singly best invention of life.It clears out the old and makes way for the new.

Steve Job on death.



Your time is limited so don't waste time living in others lives...Don't let the noise of others opinions drown out your own inner voice.Most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.


Steve Job on following your heart.




Stay hungry, stay foolish.


Steve Job on life.



Just book out and will be staying the night out.I can't believe it.I fail my IPPT again! i miss my chin up by one.Guess i really need to train more on weights. I slept like 4 hours the night before.But so far it has been pretty ok, cos it is pretty slack now. I will be chatting , playing uno, going shopping at E-mart or sleeping in the bunk.There is nothing for us to do.I guess when the main body comes in tml, the pace is going to pick up.


I really appreciate the encouragements that people have been giving.It matters more than you know it.



Got a youtube link from kimhai the moment i got home, and man it sure is a good video on Steve Job life.He was speaking during a standford graduation commencement.You can see that he is a man of character, wisdom and having gone through alot, he can impart what he has accumulated so far in his life to the younger generation. Listening to him speaks reminds me of What Pst Kong often said, about how it is not the environment but a person's character that determine how his life is going to turn out. Environment alway change but it is a person's character that substain him at the level at where he is and even push him further ahead.


Sometimes i do struggle with different aspects of life.I am just normal. I have my weakness and i have my flaws. All i could rely on are the principles that i hold in my life. Principles that i have learn in church, in my walk of life, from my friends.It is these principles that remind you that even when the whole world or your best friend tells that it is ok to do a certain thing, you still say no.


When the strength of man fail, it is when i turn to God. For He give strength to the weak. When my heart fails and i grow weak, i look to Him.




Are you referring to me?