how come ?

i just came back from mt second paper of this sem. And the title of this course i am reading is called Engineering ethics...don't really had a good time in there..i kept writing and writing and writing..until my finger had a bruise because of gripping the pen too tightly...yet i can't finish in time..well..there is a few more pts dangling in my head after the time is up...


the last two papers i had don feel that good to me...it is the "lack of A" feeling...once i step out of the examination hall, i feel like "oh my what went on inside???" it is like i was lost in my world for the last few hours...


the last time i recall i had such feelings was when i was in year 1 and my results were really chui....



but then i guess there is nothing i can do...i alway believe by my effort, i am limited by my own intelligence and as what i alway pray before i go for exams, i will do my best and He will do the rest...


really like this song, it is so smoothing...like when u are feeling down and under, u can listen to it and keep trusting in Him..




my head is feeling so much better..think i had too much coffee+ red bull+ chocolate+ mars+ apple mix together...that is what i eat most of the time...haha...then i went to weigh myself and DAH!!!!!!!! i lost weight...then i touch my tummy and ARGHHHHHHHHHH i got a bigger waist line...i can only conclude that i lost more muscle and gain more fats..



wanted to get my toner..supposed to help close the "lobangs" on my face...but too tired...wanted to go shopping to relac..but also din go...i can't wait for my exams to be over before i can go chill out..it is detrimental to my health...i look at myself in the morning and i let out a little yell...




*replay morning scenerio*



Titus woke up and jump out of bed...roll on the floor for a while then push himself up....


Titus walk into the toilet and took out his toothbrush and tooth paste...



titus look into the....



ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




ok la i kuazhang...



arghhhhh





this is what i saw...










minus the background..








continue to


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH





i really need to rest more..

i want to be where You are

nice songs...used to listen to them....



yesterday i went to a talk by Mr Milton Tan..the executive director of CreativeSingapore...i was blown away at the way he present his talk and the insights he provided...although it is going to be exams soon, i am reall glad that i went for it...he talk about how ideas, not technology or anything else.. changes the face of how the world operates...think ipod...think google..think starbucks...most of them have not be around for more than 6 to 7 years...but it is the innovative part that change the world around them..


i particularly like the part when he mention about the $100 dollar laptop..if you don noe what it is and how it is changing the lives of many kids, please go google for it..i will quote from his speech..


"To do such a project..it is beyond technology...it is Visionary...it is life-changing"



it kinda impacted me...i hope one day i can embark on something like that..where my contributions and ideas can change the lives of many..especially the poor...



back to studies...

spirit touch your church

Spirit Touch Your Church

Lord, I need Your grace and mercy.
I need to pray like never before.
I need the power of your holy spirit
To open Heaven's door.


Spirit touch Your church, stir the hearts of men.
Revive my soul with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me, Oh Lord.
Let your reign fall on me.

Lord we humbly come before You.
We don't deserve of You what we ask.
But we long to see Your glory.
Restore this dying land


after a draining day at the library, i seek your comfort

tears

i was on my way home after having a hair cut...sitting on the train with my super big crumpler bag...right in front of me sat this lady...she seems to be on the phone...


everything seems normal and she look like any tired commutor...


then suddenly her expression change...she try to keep her mouth from twisting and she start to breathe in and out deeply thought not loudly...


then i kept on observing her from the corner of my eyes..then slowly her nose gradually turn red...



my jaw dropped alittle(i scope it up the moment i realised it)..her cheek start to turn red too...




i knew that she is going to tear soon..but don really know what to do...she din say anything to the person talking to her on the phone...




then....




it broke...



she start to tear and she tried to cover her mouth and prevent herself from making any noise....






then i heard" Yishun"



i stood up...adjust my bag...adjust my shirt...but my eyes were locked on her...i was wondering " poor thing...break up with bf? something bad happened in the family?really poor thing sia"


then she stood up and was got ready to alight...she tried to hide her tears...by now tears were already streaming down her face...





i slowly walk behind her...don noe what to do...jus feel sad for her....


then i heard her say very very softly....







thank you...i really don't know what to say...thank you..





i guess someone must have really touched her with something or some action...i broke into a grin the moment i heard this...






happiness is really contagious..








Looking onto my goals, i pressed on.
keeping my focus, i submit my all to Him.

Service with Dr Kim SungHae

i really got to blog this down.


Today service was simply Awesome. Dr kim came and shared the Word of God in church and at the end of the service i was really blown away.one thought came to my mind at the end of the service...

i really hope and pray that i have a wife like her!


she taught abt life journey and how our life journey is the walk with Jesus. she keep emphasizing the importance of prayer and how she , because of her consistent prayer, change and how mould her into what she is like today.

she mention once she came back after a long day of work and the moment she stepped into the house, her husband ask her for a cup of coffee. The first thought that came to her mind was " don u have a hand? can't you see how tired i am?"

then while she was deciding whether to serve him the cup of coffee..the holy spirit told her " he has been waiting for you for 2 hours to have this cup of coffee" . when she heard this, she immediately serve the coffee and both of them kinda "dated".she goes on to say how she felt the love of her husband for her and how her husband felt loved too.


sooooo sweet!! i really pray for such a wife.



her msg is really simple but really contain alot of depth. i am impacted in a way that my thinking towards life kinda turn alittle..haha...i want to be happy..jus like how she say all the diffcult time, her faith in God kept her going and made her who she is today.how she dare not dream for the things she achieved but it is really her prayers that bring her to where she is...awesome..



i need to draw the line because i don wanna get too involved :>

for you alone..

<

just came back from cg...had a great time...sang this worship song which i really like in the past...



YOU ALONE


YOU ARE THE PEACE
THAT GUARDS MY HEART
MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS
YOU ARE THE HOPE
THAT LEADS ME ON
AND BRINGS ME TO MY KNEES
FOR THERE I FIND YOU WAITING
AND THERE I FIND RELEASE
SO WITH ALL MY HEART I'LL WORSHIP
AND UNTO YOU I SING

FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE WORSHIP AND ADORE YOU
FATHER WE LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE LOVE YOU
AND WE WORSHIP YOU THIS DAY


i want to love You even more...

Titus takut hantu

last night was bad...



i thought i was prepared...praying and playing my super loud P and W...


then at 1am....while i was chatting and doing some work...


the hair on the back suddenly got "activated"...they began to go into an upright position...


without a moment of doubt..i knew it came again...


i keep praying and binding...this time with all the lights on..but somehow the oppression is really strong...i think i cannot fight it alone..so i decided to call joseph....before i did....there is a loud eerie crying sound...some woman from don know where start to cry and scream..i was trying to look and see..it makes everything worse..the voice is really scary....


i called joseph and he prayed for me...after that i kept on praying i switch on the living room light and went into the living room..whenever i tried going into my room..there seems to be something that keep making me feel afraid..once i step out...i feel ok...



i look out of my kitchen window and mamaged to see who that woman was...she was looking right at me and cursing and scolding something...is it something she saw? this thought really made me feel so worried and scared..


i was holding my bible and wearing my cross at this time..then i went into my parents room and woke my mum up...then i told her i super scared..she kept on asking me why..but it is like so hard to explain to her..

in the end..i end up sleeping with the lights on...and door open while my mum sit in the living room..in the end i managed to sleep till morning...




pray for me...hopefully tonight i will be alright

scary

last night was pretty scary...


i was done with everything and as usual i end up in bed around 1 plus...


the moment i switch off the lights, i felt something really different...it is in the atmosphere...i can't put a finger into it...but i was soooo tired..i was heck care and went over to my bed and jump it...hugging my bolster...


then suddenly...i feel something "hovering" then it multiplied...from 1 it became 3...


i was so tired...i jus heck care..cos i was thinking i just sleep and ignore whatever that was...

then it got worse...i can hear them "howling"..it is a funny feeling...jus like u watch in the show..everything around is very quiet and the howl became so deep...it kinda went right into my heart....then i open my eyes...although i can't see what it was, but i could feel something moving in the darkness.. like going left and right...but i was so tired then i tried to ignore it by putting a bloster over my eyes and use my blanket to cover the rest of my body cos i know there is nothing they can do except to instill fear in me...



wrong move...


it got worse...


the "leader" that was hovering suddenly came and fall flat jus above me..with his face jus inches away from me...long hair dangling...it was so vivid now in my mind still...some of u might think i am dreaming but i was fully awake...it felt like i was in another dimension...hard to describe...


that was the last straw..i jumped out of my bed and went to my living room to sleep...i was really very tired..then after staying there...i start to think to myself...what the hell..that is my room!

i went back in and start praying and binding..and i took out my bible and place it next to me....


then after which..i switch off the light and went back to sleep..


it was peaceful.....


but i was late for sch...cos when everything ended..it was like 3 am...felt so tired the whole day....



but tonight things will be different...



i will be ready..

slack

first of all....i must say


my dearest arsenal are going home without any silverware this season.i am really disappointed with the way wenger lead the team..no doubt he is way too complacent not to get any transfer to strengthen the squad..especially when he know the tight schedule to come...why? why? why? i was hoping to see at least a league title ..but i guess...


it is all over!


jus came home an hour ago...was feeling super tired after the presentation and KO in the lib...i hate formal wear..need to wear tight pants and long sleeves...no doubt it is smarter but it is so hot..esp when my sweat glands work overtime most of the time...




was reminded of my army life today...was taking train home and saw this guy reading the book "the 4th dimension". he was wearing the green number 4 uniform...i rem a few years back i was like him...it was a time of testing..esp when i stay with all the hokkien ppl....they laugh me for reading the bible...watch porn in the room...i rem whenever such things happen i will jus go to the gym alone...the mosquito infected place..i go there like 3 times a week...pumping iron..pray over there....read the bible when the lights go off...listen to hillsong Cd and worship before i go sleep...i really thank God for hillsong cd...they really help me alot....i am not the very spiritual type so it became a growing time for me...my that one year in army...phew..


the past one year also became a downhill period for me...got distracted...stop visitation..stop serving at expo..stop serving in cg and in the end had to change cg because of my pride...i really hope i can go back to the time when i once had with You...i rem this song...one that i will listen every night without fail...

i need to go back to my first love..
EVER LIVING GOD
MAKER OF ALL THE EARTH
EVER LASTING KING
OUR ETERNAL PRAISE BELONGS TO YOU

ALL OF THE HONOUR
ALL OF THE GLORY TO YOU

YOU ARE WONDERFUL
MARVELLOUS FOREVER
BEAUTIFUL, PRINCE OF PEACE
FAITHFUL ONE
FOREVER

TAKE THE PLACE OF ALL HONOUR
TAKE THE PLACE ABOVE ALL THRONES
TAKE THE PLACE OF ALL POWER
YOU ARE THE ONE, GLORIOUS

sukiyaki

4PM


Sukiyaki Lyrics



It's all because of you,
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day and I love you so,
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely.


Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Another love so true,
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared,
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I'm wishing you were here
With me soaked with love all my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone I just don't know what to do
If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality, you and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.


Chorus
Girl, I don't know what I did to make you leave me
But what I do know is
That since you've been gone there's such an emptiness inside,
I'm wishing you to come back to me.


If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality,
You and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.
Oh -- Baby you took your love away from me.

my first street fight..

it was late at night..about 11 plus..

i was walking home as usual...listening to my kelvin kern and kenny G music...was feeling pretty tired...spacing out while walking home...thinking of my compressible flow eqn...


while crossing the road, the corner of the eye spotted some movement towards the right side of my vision...i turned and saw a group of indians surrounding a woman...it seems like they are asking something from her...


i carried on walking and by then i removed my headphones and was trying to hear what was going on...


the indians were apparently drinking..from the looks of the bottles some of them were holding...


in my heart i was thinking whether should i try to go and check it out...i look around, the street is deserted except for me...my mind starts to come alive with all sorts of imagination...


should i go and check if the woman is alright?? my heart was pulsating while my thoughts kept running...



i decided to...





walk quickly go home.....



and wait for the news in tne newspaper tml......






no..



i turn around and walk towards them...keep a straight face...



then some of the indians turn around..in total there were 5 of them..some bushy...some hairy ...but all of them smell of liquor...


Looking at the woman i said..

"excuse me, is everything alright?"


"eh deh...it is none of your business" one of the more drunken guy said and he push me away even before the woman can reply...



i could see from the look of the woman and it is very clear that she is put under some pressure..



and i said



"please let the lady go"



then everything from here speed up..........



before i knew it...all the 5 guys turn around and some of their faces look red and they start shouting at me...

" eh deh...i told u right"



before i knew it, they began shoving me...and then before i knew it..


they started raining punches on me.....


i was shocked!!! very shocked!!!





from the background i could hear the woman started screaming and shouting "stop"



i started to shield the punches and one of them even use the bottle to whack my arm...



then i started to swing my elbows around and i started to use all my muay thai moves around...



i elbowed two of them ...one in the cheek..the other on the jaw...i push kicked one of the guy in the stomach and send him sprawling to the ground...then i keep punching and kicking and work my way wout from there...



i threw my bag to the ground and start shouting " you can try to kick my butt...if you all can EVEN come near me!" then i shouted at the woman "Call police, call police NOW"


then it is when they charged at me





i tighten my muscles and braised myself for something hard....

then...




i heard the voice of my mom?!!





"eh...time to wake up"




i woke up and i was on the floor...



i realised it was all a dream...



must be the chocolate i had last night...

Loving's such a beautiful thing

Bee Gees
Too Much Heaven


Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

Oh you and me girl
Got a lot of love in store
And it flows through you
And it flows through me
And I love you so much more
Then my life..I can see beyond forever
Ev'rything we are will never die
Loving's such a beautiful thing
Oh you make my world.. a summer day
Are you just a dream to fade away

Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

You and me girl got a highway to the sky
We can turn away from the night and day
And the tears you had to cry
You're my life..
I can see a new tomorrow
Ev'rything we are will never die
Loving's such a beautiful thing
When you are to me, the light above
Made for all to see our presious love

Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

Love is such a beautiful thing
You make my world a summer day
Are you just a dream to fade away

Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as wide as a river and harder to cross

Nobody gets too much heaven no more
It's much harder to come by
I'm waiting in line
Nobody gets too much love anymore
It's as high as a mountain
And harder to climb

shrank

went for cecilia liwei plus 2 other more persons birthday celebration..it was pretty fun..i think i kinda shrank..everyone who haven't seen me told me i shrank..personally i am losing weight now..or so i say fats...wanna hit the gym once exams are over...i don starve myself..but rather simple steps to lost fats...


really like these 3 songs that are playng now.they used to be in my favourite list. kinda dig out from some old cds...


i think what they say is kinda true..i need the mojo..haha..but the main concern for me is really exams..i will keep it open...for sure...i will try to change the way i think...



ok back to the books..anyone who wanna mug with me kindly drop me a msg...we can go back sch on sun to mug...

i really can't wait for exams to be over...i alway love this part of the sem...cos u know the ending is near..very near..and there is so much to look forward to...haha..i can't wait to sit at starbuck or coffee beans and waste time away by talking...go and watch movies...one of my favourite hobbies...really feel like going zoo, bird park and nature reserves...not to mention that i wanna catch up with my friends...thinking of all these makes me so motivated to work harder so i can enjoy this holiday without worrying about results...



ok...back to the books...


My confidences is in my God

shake your pom pom

i watched step up 2 a few days back and i really love the show...i think it is a really good movie on dance...street dance to be exact....oh...*headspin

i got to type in proper english the best i know how.


Because there will be people whom i don't know reading whatever "bad england" i type here...and laugh over it.


haha..

i think i really should improve my english also.i got to admit it is really bad

i got C6 for both O's and A's level.


Please kindly correct me if you spot any mistakes here.


the time has come once again. it is going to be final sem exam period again!!!!!!!!


everybody * shake your pom pom, shake your pom pom*

it is a time when we need to work really hard..as always and really squeeze out every ounce of brain juice we got. i have been hearing alot of weird behaviours from my friends as a result of stress...so pls my friends, jiayou! and...



everybody * shake your pom pom, shake your pom pom*


shake your pom pom! gambatta!( spelling errors for japanese words do not count)jiayou! add oil!


everybody * shake your pom pom, shake your pom pom*


as one of the songs goes, sometime you might hit the "low" , rock bottom..all you need to do is to be like any cheerleader. that is to put on a wide smile(even though you don't feel like doing so) and...

everybody * shake your pom pom, shake your pom pom*



Because in less than a month, we all will be set free!

and of cos to Z and C xiao jie, please cheer up! cos sometimes bad things do happen to good people.as what pastor always says, life is 1% what happen to you and 99% how you choose to react to it!

so...please try to put on a wide smile and...

everybody * shake your pom pom, shake your pom pom*