Heal the World

Heal The World - Michael Jackson


One of the favourites by him. A personal loss.


Work is improving. My department manager spoke to me again. I think he is inputting a vision in me and wanting me to rise up fast. I think partially the whole department are all so old! All of them are minimum in their fifties, only me and another guy are less than half their age. Slowly starting to know the people, contractor, owners.

Spoke to a fellow mate today, we were talking about ou career and i agreed with what he said about marine line.

"In the world, what is bigger than the sky? The sea! Unless one day you tell me airplane can carry as many containers and are cheaper than sea travel, then i will quit the marine line."

I guess personally i quite like what i do now(other than the zero contribution feeling and long learning period),it is really God's grace. Think about it, the 20k, a job while others are still hunting for an interview and something i wanna do at a place so near to my house! A few months ago, everything was still so unsure but now it turn out so well!

Anyway I haven't watch transformer...should be tml if not next week ba..watching with darling!!

Shopping

This week i burnt a hole in my pocket. Bought 3 top and 2 pants from G2000. Should have gone to the sales counter to buy. Initially wanted to tailor pants but somehow the shops are always closed when i go. Went to domanchi..Realised that tapered design are not suitable for me. I don like the "squeeze" in between my leg. So Far G2000 cut is just right for me...not too tight and not overly loose. I think this shall put a stop my shopping spree. I think it is a good investment as i need to wear them everyday, at least on weekday wherelse weekend is optional(but they still wear).


Saving plan to kick in during my first pay check. Will have a standard system to ensure I save every month.

Oh how I Love you Lord....Deeper in love with You..

M.J.

In my life, there is 2 M.J. that influence me when i was young. One of them is Michael Jordan and the other is Michael Jackson. Sadly, Michael Jackson passed away this morning.

According to Wikipedia,

" On June 25, 2009, Jackson collapsed at a rented home in Holmby Hills in Los Angeles. Attempts at resuscitating him by his personal physician were unsuccessful. Los Angeles Fire Department paramedics received a 911 call at 12:21 pm (PDT),and arrived nine minutes later at Jackson's location. He was reportedly not breathing and CPR was performed.Resuscitation efforts continued both en route to the UCLA Medical Center, and for an hour further after arriving at approximately 1:14 pm (20:14 UTC).He was noted to have already been in cardiac arrest by the paramedics who attended his house. Jackson was pronounced dead at about 2:26 pm local time (21:26 UTC). The cause of death has not been determined.

In the hours following Jackson's death, his record sales increased dramatically. His seminal album Thriller climbed to number one on the American iTunes music chart, while another eight have made it into the top 40. In the UK, where Jackson would have performed less than three weeks after his death, his albums occupied 14 of the top 20 places on the Amazon.co.uk sales chart with Off The Wall topping the chart. In the UK iTunes store on June 26th, 25 of Jackson's songs were in the Top 100 best selling songs list.

There have been reports of foul play by Michael's doctor who reportedly gave a overdose of Demerol. LA police want to speak to the doctor who is missing. Rumors are appearing that his car was towed away. "


I was stunned this morning when I heard the news. He played an important role in molding many people's concept of POP and dance. Ways you might not have even imagined.

Simply the best POP Star.

" One of the few artists to have been inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame twice, his other achievements include multiple Guinness World Records—including one for "Most Successful Entertainer of All Time"—13 Grammy Awards, 13 number one singles in his solo career—more than any other male artist in the Hot 100 era and the sale of 750 million records worldwide.Jackson's highly publicized personal life, coupled with his successful career, made him a part of popular culture for almost four decades."

Work

A quick note before i head to bed.

Work is really sian. I need roughly 5 years to be good at my job. Maybe 1 to 2 years to work some little assistance. My office ppl are always OTing...seems like they have something to fight for. I guess i shall take one step at a time.

Anyway, I began to treasure more time with darling. Don want to be too pre-occupied with work.

Time to head to bed. TGIF.

Evolution...right..

ARGHHH

I WANT TO SCREAM AND PUNCH SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Job scope required so much knowledge and experience that I feel so useless at work!

Right now I am a executive Paperboy. Been doing admin stuff! Other than the hours of reading and looking at figures,I am basically helping them with the Adminstrative stuff. They all will be flying of one by one to survey ship and meet the ships engineers. Some going china, some Angola.

Uncle Wong and Raymong(yes that is the correct spelling, He always joke that my name more stylo than his) keep saying take my time, but I just don feel fulfilled!!! Hiaz, I must work harder than before! I really pray that I learn everything fast!! I hope to be able to grasp everything fast!!


Hiaz..Jus can't stand the know-nothing-contribute-zero feeling!

Deeper in love

Today bible was simply the best of the series so far. It just gets better and better. It is one of those service/bible study where the presence of God is soooo strong. Towards the end of the bible study, you can literally feel the love of God saturating the whole hall. As the meeting was ending, I turn around and realised that many people were weeping and with tears in my eyes, I can't help but feel that God is sooo real in my life. I want to work towards what pastor preach about being a mature christian.

I can't really describe my current feelings in words. Perhaps like what Pst Tan said, it is the experience that you went through. The feeling of love of God that really impacted my heart. Like the shulamite woman, after experiencing God, you can't help but want to have more and more of Him.

The church is where God is. Seek him there when you are in the wilderness.

Day1

Tml will be my first official day starting work. Real work.

My department consisted mainly of very experienced colleagues. Those who have work at least 7 years on ground and 3 years in the office. It feels abit threatening when I first stepped into the office, like you are the young chap waiting to be slaughtered. HAHA. Glad to find a guy there who is of the same age as me. I think the next one nearest in age to us is about at least 10 to 15 years older than us.

Spoke to my department boss about my job scope. Basically i have darn lots of the things to learn. I am given a few manuals to read for this few days. My job basically involved calculating the cost for the projects. Sometimes we work in team, sometimes alone, depending on the size on the projects. Eventually when i get better, the ultimate aim is for me to get business for the yard. I think this is going to be abit challenging. It may takes me years to reach that stage and also, drinking and having dinner with the clients is not really my cup of tea.

Anyway tml will be my first hands on day. Hope to get my name card fast. And should be topping my table with some food and drinks. Time to bribe the seniors! haha

Orientation

Just came back from day 1 of the 4 days of orientation.Had a pretty tight schedule today. Visted and spoke to managers from 8 different departments. It was a great way to know about the whole company. Tml will be meeting the production departments. It is also a great meet up with the diff scholars. The company has freeze head count and I think most of those coming in will be on bond.

Saw my old shop ARV1 still around! ARV2 is there already. Too bad I am not in production. I will be starting off as an commercial executive doing estimating. The good thing is it is safe and it pays well( OT for both weekday and weekends) but not as dynamic as production.Production on it's own has pro and con. They all complained they need a understanding family cos they work on sat(for sure) and sometimes sun.


Suddenly everything seems better than when i intern. Perhaps because i am going to be permament staff but I hope things will be every better.

Hull, Piping, SPC, Electrical, Mechanical tml!

Starting Work

I am officially starting work is less than 8 hrs time. Going to hit the bed soon.

I will be posted into the estimating department. Told a senior in another shipyard about in and she was pretty shocked. Because this department usually need experience and it deals with tons of numbers. Good and bad. I jut hope may God's grace be with me. I will take it as it come.

Tml will be more of orientation. Going through the contract and signing. Making of yard pass etc. Perhaps will see some old friends there. There are 3 other scholars going back together with me. I feel normalised. HAHA.

Anyway I have decided to start teaching tuition. Need to help pay off my school loan. After calculating, i realised that i don have much left after paying off my bills and expenses. Not much even to save. Anyone got lobang please tell me! Thanks!


Making time

Once I have turned my face from thee

Today bible study was simply awesome. In my honest opinion, I feel that it is a real pity to miss thiw BS if you can come down. This whole series is about our relationship with God. How we move through the phases of love.

Pst Kong shared so much today! How he was attacked, the trials that each believers have to go through. The wilderness where something good will come out of it if we were to endure and trust God.

During the whole BS, I was trying to reflect upon myself. The areas in my life that I can further improve on. At the end of the BS, we were all on our knees and worshipping God.

I really hope that Pst will make this a regular event. I missed the time in the past where we have BS until really late on friday. I totally agree with Pst about this being the solid food. I simply can't wait for the next one to come!


What impacted me was the most was about the humility and the qualities that are being demostrated by a true mature christian. Immediately I reflect upon myself and the people i see around. It is really so true. Attitude is what matters. If something is wrong with your walk with God or your belief, it is clearer than you think people around you can see.

Truly we can never have enough of Him. Enter into His presence. Let not our pride or our fleshly nature hinder our walk with Him and the destiny He has install for us.

The Defining shots in a game.

Like every other sports, there is a game defining moment. You win or lose because you either make or break at this point. And for Derek Fisher, he has shown not once but twice he still has what it takes to win the game.



And this in Overtime.



In my whole life, i think i only shot one such 3 pointer .Before the shot, everything was blur. Split seconds later, the feeling sinks in and you feel like you are flying. Look at Derek Fisher's smile. That's it.


Lakers leading 3-1!

Drag me to hell

Just watched Drag me to hell with myrna. This is one of those show which i really let go. I screamed really loud and thank God i was sitting at the corner seat. The show is not really what i defined as a horror show, it is more like a thriller. I covered my ears most of the time cos i was expecting some loud noisy throughout the show. The story is simple and does not require much thinking.Small twist at the end. I feel it is one of the must watch show.Do catch it !


Monday I am starting work. First day will be orientation so i think should be pretty slack. I have been googling alot. It seems like estimating department usually comprise of people with experience(old) so i am not expecting people of my age or near my age there. I guess you can't have the best of both world. Hope everything will turn out ok!

IPPT is coming. I will be taking this ICT with my range.I want to pass this year!Havent touch the chin up bar since last ICT. I need someone to train with me man.Any volunteer? I feel kinda shy going to the bar alone and doing like only 2.

Time to rest!

Ha haha hahaha

The original



The spoof

Peace

Thank God! It was exactly 2 weeks or so when i made this prayer request!

I almost jumped and pump my fist into the air at the foodcourt. The banmian aunty must be thinking why am i grinning at her!

Sembcorp gave me a commercial position. I will be posted to the Estimation department. I guess it is about, estimation dah!

Granted, I was warned of the lower pay, the lower chance of promotion and not as good bonus.


But hey, at least it is a job. At least it met my parents requirement. At least my GF felt ok. At least I felt the peace when i first heard about it. At least it is near to what i want to do - related to financial side.


Phew. Finally. Unless some big changes happen, I will be starting work next mon.

YES LA!!! Finally settled it once and for all.

Saints and Soldiers

Just watched Saints and Soldiers. Felt that it is a so so show. Read on the cover of the VCD and it seems to have won quite alot awards. I guess the only touching part came only at the very end. Sometimes the bigger picture don't always get registered in your brain because of the situation and where the tough gets going , the going gets tough.

Talking about movies, there has been quite a few good one that is going on. Perhaps tml can watch either terminator or angels and demons. Wanted to watch these shows a few weeks ago but kinda turn off by the reviews given by some friends. Somehow recently alot of my friends have been giving me rather good comments about them so i guess they mght be worth a ttry before i start work.


Talking about starting work, i am supposed to start next week. But till today i haven't gotten to know the department i am supposed to be in. Met up with the Old POS guys. They were really "shocked" when i told them about the Banks. One thing we do agree on is that it is a good way to gain some experience. In any case, i decided to whack a few more applications. i think YT kinda reminded me at this time, it is always good to apply for more.His brother applied for 40!! Talk about trying!


Inevitably there are some concern friends who asked me about the person tagging on my board. With the help of technology, i'm able to log in to my tagboard and trace the person(!) Almost wanted to shout surprise! I think all i can say, if saying all these stuff can make u feel better for the hurt u feel i have caused, then go ahead ba. I can't really help when the ball is in your court.I think sometimes you got to remind yourself.The whole world is not like you.


It is 2am and still i can't sleep. Been resting for so many days. Hopefully my gum will recover totally tml. At least till when i start work.

Dis-appointment

Today Myrna and I went to the prayer meeting at Riverwalk. It was a time of ministering and God spoke to me about this one thing that has been bothering me for quite abit.

Disappointment

I think one of the things that I find it hardest to let go is that i fail to meet the expectation of people. Especially those that have high hope of me, sometimes, the person can even be myself. Stepping into that room and smiling at Pastor sort of brings back the past disappointments that I have caused and the disappointments I had. God gave me a vision and it really comforts me. I know the only thing to do is to focus and keep walking. I want to get over the valley and up the mountains again.

Change disappointment into a new appointment!

Sun's greatness

Sun is going to appear on another magazine! Read her interview on 8 Days last week and she answered the questions really well! Having read the interview, i can't help but feel the reporter is driving at something. I guess it can't be helped.


I was pondering after reading a report on a young South Dakota rancher who won the biggest unshared lottery of history. $232 million! Before the lottery , he was a struggling guy whose family is trying to meet ends. Before you think his life is going to smooth sailing, statistics has shown that many of the winners of such lottery hd their lives becoming worse than before. The dramatic change in their background make them lose their trust for people around them and also the new responsibility that he faces.


I think Sun did a really awesome job. Facing all the critics, she went against all odd and not to make a name for herself , but to do what God has destined for her to do. She not only impacted the music industry across the globe but also the lives of many poor and homeless. Countless of school in china was impacted by her, orphanages she built, the things she contributed and the joy she brought to the less fortunated.

Think again, how many hollywood stars had their lives going down the drain. Take britney spears for example. I think for Sun, all her molding in church prior to her singing career has strengthen her in the marketplace. This weekend , we are going to have a celebrity weekend. FIR and F4 Vanesse are the few that are coming. This is how far she can impact the music industry and getting people saved.



Just like Jesus was in the marketplace in his time of ministry, I hope i can be mover in the marketplace. Without a doubt, the 3 greatest things that shaped the society are money, power and knowledge.Whether one believes it or not, you need one of the three to change society. A.R. Bernard is my inspiration. I long to achieve what he achieve and do what he does in New York.


It has been 3 weeks after i am back from graduate trip. I really hope for more interviews to come. Hopefully tml the email for "that job" will come!

Engineering

After so many years of physics and engineering, i kinda feel like a change of environment. Went to check out some positions in which national park is hiring, it is rather interesting what they have there..


Position 1

You will work as a member of the Special Squad team in the Environmental Health Department/North-East Regional Office. You are required to:
- Conduct raids on illegal hawkers and take enforcement action by executing an arrest and issuing a notice to attend court
- Carry out investigations on illegal hawking
- Conduct joint enforcement work with other agencies
- Make entries into the Enforcement application system and put up statement of facts, give evidence in court and facilitate police investigations into illegal hawking related offences
- Assist in seizing goods/food from the illegal hawking site and undertake its disposal.
- Be deployed for special duties and static duties in illegal hawking hotspots at any date/time including public holidays at short notices


Position 2

We are looking for individuals with passion and interest in understanding and predicting the weather and climate. You will be responsible to provide weather forecasting services and expert advice to support the weather sensitive segments of the economy and general public. You will be required to conduct research and development to improve forecasting techniques. The job provides the candidate with specialized skills & knowledge of the use of advanced technology & specialized weather monitoring equipment (for example radar, satellite & seismic monitoring). Professional training in Meteorology will be provided.


Position 3
You will play a key role in nature conservation and maintenance for the areas under your care. You will be responsible to plan, implement and monitor nature conservation programs in the field. On a daily basis, you will also be responsible for the good upkeep, maintenance and inspection of the area for the safety and enjoyment of visitors. As part of your nature conservation work, you will conduct nature outreach programs for visitors, such as lead guided tours, organize community involvement programs and give talks on nature conservation. You will be part of a team based on site, and will be expected to be a good team-player as well as independent worker.

Interesting!

Interviews

Just got called up again for another bank interview. Think it is the same 2k miserable pay. I seriously wants to go into Banking. But with such a low pay, how do i even survive? I think at least as an engineer, I still can choose to go into engineering. One of my first class business friend is going to take up the NTUC management trainee program! With all due respect, but i was thinking as a first class business student and mind u, she was shortlisted to be the possible Valedictorian of her cohort, she can go for something even better.


I am going to apply for as many possible opening as i can. Of course those i have interest in. Someone told me i am too practical and go for money, I almost wanted to burst out laughing. I guess everyone is entitled to his or her view. Personally i take whatever opportunities that is available and consider them. One of which was a civil servant job which pays well but had a pretty high stress level. I guess as i told MH, i will be putting it as the last choice because it is not what i am keen in. Perhaps the travelling and meeting of ppl, but not the high stress level. Even though the starting pay is 4k and high chance of going into management.


I am glad that i went through the PhD, the Sembcorp Marine interview, the Banks interview. I seriously don't know what will be the one i am eventually going to take. I believe with all my heart i have no need to hurry. One thing for sure, the interviews really trained me in my presentation skills, my knowledge of the various industries. Most importantly, it is a self discovering process. I wish i had more choice. Basically i am jus fluctuating between engineering and banking, Someone told me MOE is a good choice, because of the good money(qouted by the same person). I guess if money was the reason, i think perhaps i would have taken on PhD which pays me so much better.


Life is short. Don't live in your well. Come out and experience how great and wonderful this world can be.

SCB

Just came back from a jog. First time running after 2 to 3 weeks, felt weak..did about 4k plus. Given that i am not gifted physically, i need to work harder to meet the mark.


Today went for SCB interview. It went extremely well. I guessed the HR lady really like me. She even provided me some hints to the technical questions. We had a long interview which lasted about 45 mins. I was the worst dressed candidate there. Everyone wore a tie..ok..except the girls..some who were there for meetings wore blazers...i was really the odd one out. But well, she told me she will see me for the next round.

Then came the bomb, she told me it is going to be 2k and one year contract. 2k? eat grass( as put by one of my friend in engineering sector now). I think it is normal for such a reaction from a logical and practical engineer. It is extremely low!


The good news is that the HR of my parent company ask me if i want to try commercial side! This is the best of the situation. Doing business related stuff and serving my bond!

Well..let's see how things will unfold.