Handsome Hamster

Pentax K-X

2010-09-21T06:38:00.000-07:00

Been on MC today due to fever, diarrhea and vomitting. I am feeling 99% well and hope to recover completely tml!

Anyway, this past few months has been really busy for me. Finally completed my national day duty haha. After which i went to Genting for the first time with my family and myrna. I must say it is a pretty interesting place. The weather is cooling and there is alot of place to play and eat. Hope i can have a chance to go back again.

Oh ya, I gotten a new DSLR. Pentax K-x. I think many of us who are not into photography might not have heard the brand before. It is not like Canon, Nikon or Sony Alpha but there are more like old school brand like Minolta(which was taken over by Sony to form Sony Alpha). In terms of lens, it is not inferior compared to the major brands and it gives me the best bang for the buck in terms of image quality( as compared to say Canon 550D, Nikon D90, Sony A550) . So far I am really really happy with it. I might want to try Canon in the next round but likely will try at least 60D or 7D unless my budget don't allow me.

Some of pictures I took with kits lens

Anyway things at work have been pretty normal. 9 more months till the end of my bond! I wonder how things will be like in the next few months.

Tml will be mid-autumn festival and my 17th month anniversary with dear.

Sungei Buloh / Houston

2010-07-05T06:12:00.000-07:00

Just got back work after spending 12 hours in office!

Anyway yesterday i managed to squeeze some time to head to Sungei Buloh with some of my Cg members. Wanted to go before it shut down and it was pretty fun having a break from usual city life. Oh my it is the first time i spotted crocos there!!! Think must be the rain before our trip and high tides that allow them to move into the areas.

Some pictures taken using my 55200 len.

Hopefully I will get the chance to use my camera more often! Been so preoccupied with work that I hardly have time to exercise or go out.

Will be heading to Houston next week for a week or so. The flight is like 24 hrs with one transit at Moscow! Phew! Been hearing from seniors that usually we will chiong for the first few days then squeeze one to two days of R & R.

Time to head to bed. Brain been overloaded.

Of camera and work

2010-06-28T06:19:00.000-07:00

Finally gotten a nite of good well excellent - deserved rest. I have been having 7 days week like for months. Mon to Fri - Work. Sat - NDP whole day. Sun - Church, GF + Family and the cycle repeats itself. NDP is just one month away and I can't wait to march into Padang for the last time!

Speaking of which, I finally decided to get a new Camera. This is my first camera I ever got, excluding camera phone and one time use disposable camera. After many days of intense research and considering the budget. I decided to go for the Sony Alpha A330 even though many people arent sure or ask me to go for canon/nikon.

The price and the wide availability of cheap lens are the main reasons why I chose this model. Furthermore, in terms of photo quality, it has one of the best among rest of the entry level camera.

Took some nice shots. There is so much to learn and one thing i learn is that you must work around your camera and its limitations. Having the best camera and lens does not always mean you get the best shot.

Alot of areas to improve on and I got to shoot more to improve. Tempted to get a 18-250mm len which cost $700 after discount. After considering for a long time, I decided to drop that idea. It simply cost too much. BTW Anyone keen to go on a shooting trip, do drop me a sms. Good chance to chat and talk cock haha.

Work is still ok. Pay is still as low and hours are long. Other than that, everything is still pretty ok. Been learning pretty much about marine on the job, more of the commercial side. There is ever so much to learn! How will i have time to squeeze in my part time studies!

Anyway I am hoping to catch with some friends. The POS peeps, ME peeps etc. Simply can't wait for NDP to be over.

Up, up and away!

2010-05-04T05:49:00.000-07:00

Finally got some time to blog about life. Ended work at 7.30pm today. Had a meeting with some Owners with my managers and it went on and on. Basically it is just about the $ sign. I am pretty glad that at least i got something to do. I absolutely detest sitting in the office and not knowing what to do or whatelse to think about.

As i approached the 11th month at work, I began to question myself regarding what my interest are. My work appears to be super mundane. I look at spreadsheet everyday. I key in prices and fulfill what contractual needs we have to do. On and off I get to meet Owners to clarify prices and maybe have tea with them. I dont know how thing will go but somehow it seems to settle into the routine.

On and off I ponder about the path I want to take in life. I dont wish to live a mediocre life and settle into the relax way. I personally believe that one has to sharpen his knife before going for the hunt and if he has to hunt, he should hunt the most rewarding animal. One thing I am happy is that within this 11 months I learn quite alot of stuff with regards to ship repair and there are like tons more to learn. Got to keep up the pace!

Oh ya i simply love my iphone! It basically does everything I need! From reading of news, to internet msging, to keeping watch of stocks, to playing games, to music, to internet etc... My n97 can do most of these too but iphone does it faster, smoother with more function! Awesome!

Up, up and away!

I See Tee

2010-04-20T05:59:00.000-07:00

Booked out for a few hours before heading bed to camp. ICT has been pretty slack..sleeping the whole day and eating. Tml will be my ippt, hope i can clear it and save myself from RT.

ICT is something everyone hates. Because it disrupt the routine of our lives in a way we does not like. We have to cut ou hairs, start packing things we use like once in a year, using 1G hp again and having to wear the undersize uniform again. Personally if it is a low key one, i feel it is still enjoyable as we get to meet up and talk crap. It serves as a nice break once in a while. However this cannot be said for high key one as we have to be there for 2 weeks! I can't imagine sleeping in a dirty dusty bunk for 2 weeks!

I am getting really fat recently. With my tyre inflating, i ought to start running, swimming and watch what i eat. I really hope to stay in shape.

Alright...time to head off and have some time with my mum before booking in again.

bORINGsINGAPORE

2010-03-27T05:56:00.000-07:00

Just had my dinner. Feeling alittle tired and sian. Sg is pretty boring. Some days i just dont feel like sitting around and drinking coffee with the same group of people over and over again. Feels like doing something different tonight.

Went to Asia Pacific maritime exhibition. Meet up with some top top guys in the major yard...like Director of ASL, Second man for ST marine...Meet many bosses from different companies. Most of them grew up poor and work their way up to where they are now! Can see how lucrative the marine business is. Amazingly , they all had the same thing to say and advice for me. All of them tell me to stay in the marine business. Singaporeans are a dying breed and many of these companies are looking for the next generation. To quote what the man from ST marine said,

" I am already 62. Whatever you want, I will teach. What for i keep for myself. I want people to take over the next generation. But to them( the younger generation), the grass is always greener on the other side. "

But frankly marine is hard work. You need to be able to work under stress.

Anyway,do you know the biggest a cockroach can grow up to 150mm. I think it might be hard to believe...but the video below shows you how true it is. Btw it is not at its full size!

Some people are so darn afraid of them but some simply loves them...check this out:

9 months into the journey

2010-03-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

Phew! it has been a long time since i really sit down and blog. Life have been pretty packed with so much to learn and do at work. I am happy at the pace I am going. I am not sure how far I will go in the company but my manager have great career path lay out for me. If i keep up the pace, things will be very different in about 5 years time. I guess for my short term aim is to aim for a promotion before my bond ends and to hit the M grade within 5 years?

Life is not about all work alone and work is not all about money. I firmly believe one has to know the direction he is heading before going all out into the journey. It has been 9 months and 6 days since the first day of work. I am adjusting and picking up my stuff faster these days. There is so much to learn, from technical aspect, to commercial aspect, to soft skills, to building network and knowing the industry and market. I am glad for all the attention that we are given.

Bonus payout letter is this month. For this year, we have a record year at bonus. I am not really happy cos of the school fees i have to pay. No matter how much is the payout, i am going to dump to OCBC to pay my school fees.

Shall have a good night before battle begins tml.

Run faster, swim longer, look further, aim higher

Sick

2010-02-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

I am feeling feverish and having diarrhea since morning! so darn tired. Shall collapse once i bathed. Quesy feeling in my stomach too.

Time is important.

bday

2010-02-03T08:04:00.001-08:00

It is the time of the year again. Everything felt so diff from the previous year.

1,000,000,000 air

2010-01-31T08:15:00.000-08:00

I feel weird.

Just that as i zoom past what i have been doing for the last 6 months, i can't help but feel i am not walking in the right destiny.I need to breakthough. I need to breakthrough in my thoughts, in my action, in my faith and in love.

How do you expect to fly when all you think of is landing?

Heineken

2010-01-29T07:20:00.000-08:00

Mum is still sick. And she is trying all sorts of method to make her condition well, both natural(unproven) and supernatural. It is pretty tiring having to convince her not to listen to all the aunties saying and trust the doctor.

Been feeling pretty sian this few days and Heineken helps me sleep well at night. The moment i pop one, i sleep till morning without any disturbance. Cool huh. It is not i am drunk or what, just that it keeps me sound asleep.

That's what i need tonight.

Hope and disappointment

2010-01-19T05:23:00.000-08:00

Today I almost went through the roof.

nope i wasnt angry. I was happy. Having doing paper trading, I have been picking the right stock. Genting for mon and Capitaland for today. I need to brush up on my TA skill and finish my FA spreadsheet.

Currently reading a book on trading, usually i go for investing books but this is one of the few trading book i started on. Hope I am able to finish it.

Wanted to run and clear up my room but it rained and my mum told me to clear up on sun instead. So ended up watching TV and readin this book.

The more i look at myself, the more i feel i am weird. HAHA. I really pity myrna sometimes. I am one of the most unromantic guy and practical person. Always telling her to save and I feel i am not giving her enough surprises. I think it is time i improve on that.

I am also pretty much a loner. I like to spend time reading, analysing and thinking about stuff. If not i like to exercise. And no i am not fit at all, i am struggling to pass my ippt. Chin up and 2.4 killing me!

I like to make people feel happy, encouraged yet i wish to do the opposite to some people because i feel it is necessary they get the point. In my view point i really pity people who live in self denial. Time is always the best instrument to revealing the truth. Of course i have time people will come up to me and lash out at me, for a moment i will be angry. Then i will think, then i will ask, then i will think, then i will ask more. Then i will do what i can to salvage the situation and think again 3 months later. that is how i try to make myself think straight.

Just got a new mirror screen protector from sean! love it! make my n97 so much sexier!

We must accept finite disappointment but we must never lose infinite hope!

Life

2010-01-17T05:58:00.000-08:00

I am pleased to see there are actually people who read my blog.

Anyway to H -> I guess you are must be some high IQ guy who is really into trading. I appreciate your views, do keep them coming!

Leo -> You just gave a money management course to everyone.Thanks dude!

Anyway i just came home and finish reading this week of edge. Oil has slipped to below 79 and with so many financial results that is going to release soon, i forsee the offshore stocks to have big movement.

Everyone is saying that oil and gas sector will set to rise most in the coming year.Personally from what i see in my company, i dont expect the big boys to make money. Be it sembcorp, keppel, unless they have secure upcoming deals. Therefore i recommend stocks with proven deals that is ongoing for the next few months. Keppel in my humble opinion is undervalued and i believe it is a good buy. However it is going into a downward trend. I foresee a bigger fall during its release of result. So KIV.

Genting is set to open in a few days time. With it current price, i am at a loss whether to enter again tml. So far it secure a deal with Air asia and no doubt it boost the confidence of the investor(or should i say speculators) and i believe there is room for rise in the next few days.

I believe if the drop in crude persist on along with rise in demand, this will translate to higher charter rate for shipping sector.The whole shipping sector have been in the red since last year, with NOL turning black, I think there are several firm that are currently undervalue and i foresee they will be the few sector to improve most in the coming year.

For a longer view, SMRT and SATS will no doubt benefits from the higher ridership and higher tourist volume as the IRs open in a few months time. In view of all that i know, I believe there are good counter to hold for long time. Unlike comfort, whose majority of business are overseas, SMRT operates cab, train and bus which will directly benefit from the growth.

I just finished my Heineken. Dont be mistaken, they help me to sleep better at night. :>

" Always believe that there is a chance that you could be wrong"

The market as it is

2010-01-11T07:42:00.000-08:00

" What goes up must come down unless cherry pickers stay around"

Here I am a poor man, unable to really trade that much. But i think stocks markets are very very exciting. Whenever i enter the market, i will be extremely nervous. Worried i will suffer loss to my hard-earning money. So far things are good, i am in the black and i do hope my red will come soon. yes i mean it.

As i read through the news and bullish sentiments, i can't help but feel that it is too amazing. With oil price pushing through, i can't but wonders how did we do it?

We just came out of recession faster than the rate we enter.

Theoretically we took abt 9 months to dip and 6 to 7 months to recover...almost fully. I meant by the stock price and the start of bullish run...is it amazing?

I feel a correction should come near feb/march. To some, they might tell me. "Bro why think so much, you like then buy lor"

In stocks, i feel we can never study/know enough nor know too little. At the back of my mind, i have keep the correction-detection on.

For this week, Hoe leong will go strong. SPH too. Ezra. Noble should be continuing its run together with Golden agriculture.

let's see.

Cherry pickers are the best indication of true bull stocks!

1st post of the year!

2010-01-01T18:59:00.000-08:00

Today is the 2nd January of 2010!

A new year has come and yet an old one fades into our memory lane. As the symbolic countdown clock still flashes in my mind, many of us were busy with countdowns and parties. It also appeared that everyone were "dying" to get on with time and move forward into the new year. As I look back into 2009, it has been a pretty good year for me. In terms of relationship, personal life, money and church, things are pretty well.

As i began to age, I start to realise and understand the importance of time. When we were younger, we tend to let time fly by while we do nothing or things of little importance. As i cross the quarter of a century, my persecptives of things are starting to change.

Now, it is 2010, I guess many of us has already made our resolutions. For those who havent, start doing it now. I would also encourage all of us to relook back into 2009 and think of the people or things that deserve more of your time. Things that were not included in the resolution made in the beginning of 2009. Let's not take anybody or anything for granted!

Happy 2010!

499

2009-11-12T07:23:00.000-08:00

Approaching my 500th post...promise it will be good.

For the time being..it is the Z monster that is callling out for me..

I love being a deviant!

Inputting knowledge into my brain

2009-11-03T03:11:00.001-08:00

Firstly to divert from my blog topic, i am 2 post away from my 500 post milestone!

Just did an MRI scan. To those who don't know, i have been suffering from knee pain since june. Been to the specialist a few times but can't get the problem solved. Apparently it is not the wearing off of my knee, which can be easily treated with glucosamine, as according to the specialist. Hope this scan can reveal what is wrong.

Been reading Malcaom Gladwell's new book, What the dog saw. Pretty different from his previous 3 books. As i read, i realised that one thing for sure i know i love to do is to input knowledge into my brain. The more i know, the more "powerful" i feel. It is a different feeling from knowing alot of stuff. I particularly love knowing something which people normally won't know, be it useful or not. Like for example, do cockroach die lying normally or flat on it back most of the time? how come you some people can make millions in one day but others struggle to meet ends? how come guys are attracted to certain attributes of the opposite sex?

Work has been pretty ok for me. Sometimes i feel it is getting boring. Cos there is not much for me to do and there is alot for me to learn. So much to learn that i can't do anything. The irony is that what i learn doesn't really interest me that much. Maybe it is the lowest level, maybe it is too dry. But i am really more interested and concern with global outlook and how to position the company to meet the challenges 10 years ahead. Perhaps my boss is right, i got to keep this in mind as i go through whatever i am learning now.

As i falter between whether to take CFA, i am wondering what does the banking industry holds for me. If it is a higher level of pitching, like what my friend nic saya, then maybe it won't be my cup of tea for long.

I prefer to think hard, think long and solve tough problem.

I hope to set trends, break mindset and bring insight.

I want to emerge, kick dust and earn big buck.

Get the picture?

Someone teach me how!

Dream

2009-10-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

Woke up feeling like i slept for 3 hours only.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt I was with Pst kong for the whole day. It is really weird.

I rem the dream starts off with Pst kong being a friend to me. Just like those random movie that starts off with 2 friends going out. I was with him and of course with much respect, we talk about his shops, business and ministry. It felt like i am under his discipleship and picking up things. We went around in his car and he kinda show me many things before we sat down and had heart to heart talk about personal stuff.

The more i think about it, the more weird i felt! Of cos i would love to have him as a personal discipler and friend. The dream is just so weird.

Swam 44 laps straight for about 50mins. I need some excitment in life!

Diarrhea

2009-09-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

Supposed to be at OPM now but having diarrhea and constant stomach ache has prevented me to go. Guess i will go for make up on fri!

This blog has been accumulating dust! I am pretty sure that hardly anyone will read it. Seems like whenever someone started work, he or she will blog so much less!! I have been pretty lazy for the last few months! haha.. Other than spending time with myrna, i have been trying to catch up with friends as much as I can.

Maybe it is time to have some mini updates!

1) I got a new black n97!!

SEXY! I am such a hp freak. The good thing is that i din spend a single cent on this. I merely sold my e71 and use the amount to pay for the difference. Made about 90 dollar profit. I got admit, it is bulky and the OS is abit aged. Other than that, the camera is awesome! Web surfing experience is 1st class.

Pictures taken at F1 village vintage car exhibition!

2) F1

Another awesome thing i did was to go to F1! It was such an awesome experience! The atmosphere was electrifying! With the smell of burning rubber, loud(I mean real loud!)roaring engine and the enthu crowd, I simply love it! Will go again next year! Btw Alonso got a podium finish! Really happy about it!

check out the video taken using my n97 after my camera went flat.

3) USS Nimitz!

Oh yes, i went up n aircraft carrier!! The biggest in its class! All thanks to my colleague who knew the officer there well so we have the chance. He went there like 6 to 7 times(different one everytime) but told us this is one of the biggest and most comprehensive tour he went!

Check out the pictures!

4)Swimming

The inability to run has resulted in me starting to swim. I try to cover at least 40 laps each time i go. But still i am gaining weight, apparently it is not enough of a workout for me! In the process, I have developed a tan which i hope to keep! hopefully my knee will recover soon ! can't wait to start running again!

Pray for a speedy recovery!

2009-08-15T07:44:00.001-07:00

To the pure, all things are pure

2009-08-10T06:24:00.000-07:00

I finally have some personal time to myself..this few days have been crazy! sleeping late and waking up so early and having all my days packed! I am glad it is all over..just feel like slacking and having some personal time.

Went to watched GI JOE today. It was below my expectation. Somehow my taste for movies has changed. I no longer enjoy those no brainer action movies as much. They are good, CGI wise. I feel the plot is really soso, in fact, it does not really make senses. Maybe because it is based on some kids toy, so it does not really have an indepth plot. Any tom dick or harry can make an action packed movie if they pump in alot of money, but to make one with great storyline is a tough soup to brew.

Was reminded of the saying tgar Pst mentioned for a period of time, "To the pure , all things are pure...". One impt thing that i realised that is that one's perception and thinking is what ultimately guides a person. Basically there are 3 group of ppl in this world

1) Those who perceive they are wrong all the time.
- they are the one who are crazy. They lost their senses and orientation. They no longer believe in anything about themselves. That's why depression can lead to mental breakdown. Depression causes one to lose all hope of life and they start to think they are wrong(hence losers) all the time.

2) Those who percieve they are right some of the time.
- They are the "normal" ppl. They don make judgement on the spot. They consider viewpts.

3) Those who perceive they are right all the time.
- Those who always think they are right all the time.They are CONFIDENT that their knowledge and experience will prove them right. They think ppl are always in the wrong or they are deceived or naive. They will argue all the time to prove their pt. They have strong determination, but they can be soooooo strong in their view pt, that they are ssoooooo teribly wrong.

In fact, everyone has a combination of the 3 kinds( obviously if you constantly think in viewpt no 1, you need help!). I feel i am the 3rd kind most the time, be it whether i know it or not. It is a result of overly-confident(pride), the refusal to accept things as they are presented to me and lack of trust in ppl. To counter this problem, I will ponder alot. To grill and grill what viewpoints, ideas or stance i am taking, to be very sure that i am not being biased. Occasions( trust me, there are MANY) will come that i meet similar kind of people, they will show aggressiveness, talk in loud voice, display alot of emotions and they usually end up not wanting to carry on talking.

End of the day, you must know what kind of viewpoints do you hold most of the time. This will help you to become a better communicator and at the same time, allows you to learn from flaws that might have escape your radar.

God

2009-08-04T08:56:00.000-07:00

Finally I am blogging. Work have been pretty busy and this few weeks there have been events going on that kept me rather busy, from 21st birthdays to weddings to FOP and of cos CHC 20th anniversary!

Looking at the calender, I realised almost 2 months have passed since i started work and i thank God for everything at work. People are pretty nice, working environment is pretty challenging and there are lots(understatement) to learn. For ppl who are looking at stocks to invest, do check out COSCO.Will be handling my 3rd ship tml till fri and this is pretty challenging, hope i can do well.

Was pondering about things and it is amazing how God put thoughts into my mind, thoughts that i never think of. These includes areas that i need to improve on, thoughts and revelation of life journey, lessons from past experience and of cos the things that you realised that He has placed in your path, things you realised only when you go past and look back.

Keep smiling, life is all about training and what separates the weak and the victorious is the word Attitude.

If you feel you are going through hell, take joy that God is giving you a crash course on life. And the best thing?

He knows you will complete it.

Akiane

2009-07-30T08:22:00.000-07:00

Work

2009-07-28T05:39:00.000-07:00

Finally i am back home early from work! don't get me wrong, I have been busy for the last few night and i usually sleep after 12! and i have to wake up at 6 plus to work! I am glad i finally can have an early night!

Work has been pretty good today! quoted my second ship! it is a "one-dollar" project to my company but still i feel i achieved something! Neo have been pretty encouraging and not forgetting my "GodFather" at work, Raymond! haha..he never fails to teach me about work and also the way we should lead our lives. I have been reading and trying to quote old job which the senior have quoted before.

Other than the routine work, there are also pretty much events going on in my company sports club. Almost wanted to join the pool competition but too bad we sign up late. Oh ya tml we are going to have a photoshoot!!! Must try to dress smart!

The highlight of the day is and always will be to read the circular in my department. Before you think it is some crap, it contain everything about the company in a nutshell. The circular contin all the emails between my company and other companies, major news in the shipping line and all the relevent stuff such as new regulation etc. not forgetting that the magazines and insider info about shipping industry! Even though i have been in the company for about 1.5 months only, my knowledge about the shipping industry has growth by 400% or so! The way ppl do business is so darn cunning! Really learn so much !

I hope I can learn as much as I can. I need to constantly keep in mind about the big picture!

Funny conversation at work

Raymond: hey Titus you go to church? < shouting from other end of office)

Me: Yes.

Raymond: Kim hock you also go church?

Me: no la, he go to mosque.

Raymond: you all never sign up for the 7th month ghost festival dinner but you are always welcome to join us.

Me: ok.

Raymond: Remember Buddha loves you no matter who you are...

LOL!!!!!

Work

2009-07-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

First of all,

Happy 5th month anniversary Dear!

Too bad i can't post pictures here..but we had great fun playing hide and seek! haha...next time we will hava a relaxing session watching movie at your house and order take away ok? hehe...

Going to type a short entry before going to bed...work is getting busy. Continuing to learn new stuff. Was pretty glad the first ship i help ti quote(ok i did jus abit) was awarded to my yard! there is so much things to learn and i am glad that my boss are patient with me and the diff managers are helpful. Really hope i can speed up the process and get the stuff done. I just want to learn as much as i can before my two years is up. I mean i might just stay put or move into another industry. See how God direct.

Saw a nice shirt at G2000 going on sale. Will be getting. That will make my shirt collection to a grand total of 7. Not too much i guess!!

I can do all things through christ
I can move the mountain
if i put my trust in you..

living the lives of others

2009-07-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

Just watched "No limits". Frankly speaking, it is only slightly above average. The show, however, did stirr up many thoughts in me.

1) I feel like running.
"Pre" just instill the running fever in me. I mean i run but not for a cause. Watching the show input a vision for running, a thought process for running, a way of running and how to run your own race. Though he lost, but if he had kept to his own pace, he would have won!

2) Living the runner life
This show makes me wonder how it is like to be doing what i m not doing now. Been born and bred in singapore, i can't help but feel that what we can do is pretty limited. I wonder how would it be like if i pursue a running career? To become a full time basketball player? to start my own store? to make my own shoe? I
thank God for what i have now but i can't help but ponder, is the surrounding restricting my dream? or is my dream being restricted by the surrounding? :P

I think i should step out and do what i always wanna do. I like to work in the banking sector, cos i like the nature of the job. I want to start my own business bcause it suits what iam looking for. I really hope to get something going on by the end of this year. But i am not in any hurry to do it, just want to be sure that i am doing what i really want and not dive into any pit i can find.

Tell me what you hope to have in life!

2009-07-18T09:13:00.001-07:00

The art of thinking

2009-07-16T08:17:00.000-07:00

Just book out from my reservist and i am heading back again tml morning for IPPT. If not for the H1N1 case, i think i should be still inside there doing cohesion stuff. This past one week had been pretty tiring. Sleeping on average 4 hrs per night due to the tight schedule. I guess it will be all over soon tml once i out-pro.

Anyway reservist has always been a good chance for me to meet up with old friends. People whom i have not met for years and new friends whom i have not seen before. It is through this yearly "gathering" that you get to see the different opinion and way of thoughts among us all.

I think generally the perception of army among many has always been bad. I think this is partially due to the fact that army is never self imposed but "duty" for the nation. I am the few among my friends who think that army is impt. Yes, the chance of war is low but there is still a possibility. Think about Citi group and Lehman Brothers. 1 year ago who in their wildest dream will think they are going bust?

I am a firm believer that how you think, shape who you are. I look at those who curse and swear and complain about how this in camp is making their lives like hell on earth, they are making only their lives more miserable. You can come in and complain about the food, the bed, the people , the organisation, the pay, the way things are done, the uniform and blah blah blah, i dare say the only person who is going to lose out is you!

Instead of having a bad impression from the start, why not try to look at things from a more positive view? if a simple ICT can make your life miserable, how are you going to face the storms in life? As a spec(middle man between man and officers), i can see the difference in the thinking of the man and officers generally. I think one have to remain strong in thinking and know what is the best thing to do.

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

Language shapes the way we think, and determines what we can think about.

Life is a grindstone. Whether it grinds us down or polishes us up depends on us.

Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well.

There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

Commencement 2009

2009-07-09T08:37:00.000-07:00

I will be conferred my degree on the 11th July at University cultural center at 10am.Do come support me if you can!

Went to Myrna's one today and she took quite a number of photos. After that we went for dim sum lunch, a treat by her parents.

I was pondering about commencement and realised there are mixed feelings from differetn people.

Most are feeling as per normal, kinda feel it is nothing special and not that life changing. I believe they feel that degree holders are everywhere and there are much more exciting milestones ahead. Or they simply don't see the thrill in it.

Some , on the other hand, feels damn excited. Like it is a very very important thing in their life. They cannot understand why the first group of people can even have the idea of forgoing the ceremony. To them, they have work hard and earn their way there. This ceremony is to reward and formally declare they have been there and done it.

The remaining ones, are the in between. We believe in the importance of going thru the motion and try to make the best out of it. We don think it is a waste of time to go yet we aren't that excited about it. Most of us sees it as a chance to make our parents feel proud. And that makes up the main motivation behind it.

Personally I am the 3rd group of people. I don see having a degree as "been there and done that". With all due respect, degree is not easy to get. I just see it as a phase of life. In the different phases, there are goals we want to achieve and the commencement is just an event to tell me i have met my goals for this phase and only this phase. I hope my parents will feel proud of me.

God really made me so effective during my uni life! With the various camp i organised, CCA i joined, the church committments I had, yet I did relatively ok. I see this as a training process and I believe that the best has yet to come!

Deeper in love!

Overslept

2009-07-07T05:19:00.001-07:00

I feel so tired!

Maybe because of the depleted sleeping hours, I feel pretty tired for the last 2 weeks. I feel pretty lethargic. Just don't feel like doing anything but to sleep. After my ICT, I came home and fell asleep. I am so tired I jus KO in front of my comp and went to bed without me knowing! I don't really know I can go for AR Bernard meeting. I woke up with so many sms and missed call!! My knee is hurting still, and I feel pretty tired. Is it the sign of age?

Wasted my time today, basically went back and slack around. Had a 2 hr breakfast and 2.5 hr lunch. Hopefully tml can end early.

Anyway blogger is having problems again. I can't upload pictures! that makes this blog handicapped!! Anyone know how to fix this? if not, I am starting a new blog. Apt also for my new phase of life.

Pictures

2009-07-07T01:41:00.001-07:00

I can't upload any pic. Hence will not be blogging until this problem is fixed.

Transformers 2

2009-07-01T08:41:00.001-07:00

Just watched the highly anticipated movie - Transformer 2. I must say this is much better than the first one. In my opinion, the first one focus more on the theme, that is transforming cars and planes, kinda give u the "can't-wait-to-see-what-is-transforming-next" feeling. The second one focus more on the fighting, transforming(which is slower and better and easier to appreciate) but halfway thru the show, it gives me a "ooo, ooo,yayaya,ooo.ok" feeling. In short, good movie because of the CGI and action.ok, megan fox too. But that is pretty much it.

On my way home, I was pondering what makes a great movie. I think the climax of the movie is what is most impt. Most show try to show it at the end, take 300 for example. The ending climax of the king trying to kill the enemy and failed makes the movie extraordinary. Some movies are so good that it can move the climax to the middle and keep the show nice towards the end, like coach carter. I think this is where transformer, in my opinion, has failed. But still, i think the theme is pretty hard to work around with. To be fair, I will give it 3/5 stars. Good show, but not great.

Work is pretty ok. Learning the trade and tricks of doing business. Hope i can pick things fast and get along with the path my manager wants me to go.

Knee is giving me problem.Perhaps i can't run too long. but 5km is pretty ok i think. Perhaps it is time for a downgrade.

Fate seldom calls on us on a moment of our choosing

Heal the World

2009-06-30T03:55:00.000-07:00

Heal The World - Michael Jackson

One of the favourites by him. A personal loss.

Work is improving. My department manager spoke to me again. I think he is inputting a vision in me and wanting me to rise up fast. I think partially the whole department are all so old! All of them are minimum in their fifties, only me and another guy are less than half their age. Slowly starting to know the people, contractor, owners.

Spoke to a fellow mate today, we were talking about ou career and i agreed with what he said about marine line.

"In the world, what is bigger than the sky? The sea! Unless one day you tell me airplane can carry as many containers and are cheaper than sea travel, then i will quit the marine line."

I guess personally i quite like what i do now(other than the zero contribution feeling and long learning period),it is really God's grace. Think about it, the 20k, a job while others are still hunting for an interview and something i wanna do at a place so near to my house! A few months ago, everything was still so unsure but now it turn out so well!

Anyway I haven't watch transformer...should be tml if not next week ba..watching with darling!!

Shopping

2009-06-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

This week i burnt a hole in my pocket. Bought 3 top and 2 pants from G2000. Should have gone to the sales counter to buy. Initially wanted to tailor pants but somehow the shops are always closed when i go. Went to domanchi..Realised that tapered design are not suitable for me. I don like the "squeeze" in between my leg. So Far G2000 cut is just right for me...not too tight and not overly loose. I think this shall put a stop my shopping spree. I think it is a good investment as i need to wear them everyday, at least on weekday wherelse weekend is optional(but they still wear).

Saving plan to kick in during my first pay check. Will have a standard system to ensure I save every month.

Oh how I Love you Lord....Deeper in love with You..

M.J.

2009-06-26T08:46:00.000-07:00

In my life, there is 2 M.J. that influence me when i was young. One of them is Michael Jordan and the other is Michael Jackson. Sadly, Michael Jackson passed away this morning.

According to Wikipedia,

" On June 25, 2009, Jackson collapsed at a rented home in Holmby Hills in Los Angeles. Attempts at resuscitating him by his personal physician were unsuccessful. Los Angeles Fire Department paramedics received a 911 call at 12:21 pm (PDT),and arrived nine minutes later at Jackson's location. He was reportedly not breathing and CPR was performed.Resuscitation efforts continued both en route to the UCLA Medical Center, and for an hour further after arriving at approximately 1:14 pm (20:14 UTC).He was noted to have already been in cardiac arrest by the paramedics who attended his house. Jackson was pronounced dead at about 2:26 pm local time (21:26 UTC). The cause of death has not been determined.

In the hours following Jackson's death, his record sales increased dramatically. His seminal album Thriller climbed to number one on the American iTunes music chart, while another eight have made it into the top 40. In the UK, where Jackson would have performed less than three weeks after his death, his albums occupied 14 of the top 20 places on the Amazon.co.uk sales chart with Off The Wall topping the chart. In the UK iTunes store on June 26th, 25 of Jackson's songs were in the Top 100 best selling songs list.

There have been reports of foul play by Michael's doctor who reportedly gave a overdose of Demerol. LA police want to speak to the doctor who is missing. Rumors are appearing that his car was towed away. "

I was stunned this morning when I heard the news. He played an important role in molding many people's concept of POP and dance. Ways you might not have even imagined.

Simply the best POP Star.

" One of the few artists to have been inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame twice, his other achievements include multiple Guinness World Records—including one for "Most Successful Entertainer of All Time"—13 Grammy Awards, 13 number one singles in his solo career—more than any other male artist in the Hot 100 era and the sale of 750 million records worldwide.Jackson's highly publicized personal life, coupled with his successful career, made him a part of popular culture for almost four decades."

Work

2009-06-25T09:55:00.000-07:00

A quick note before i head to bed.

Work is really sian. I need roughly 5 years to be good at my job. Maybe 1 to 2 years to work some little assistance. My office ppl are always OTing...seems like they have something to fight for. I guess i shall take one step at a time.

Anyway, I began to treasure more time with darling. Don want to be too pre-occupied with work.

Time to head to bed. TGIF.

Evolution...right..

2009-06-23T06:13:00.000-07:00

ARGHHH

2009-06-23T05:28:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO SCREAM AND PUNCH SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Job scope required so much knowledge and experience that I feel so useless at work!

Right now I am a executive Paperboy. Been doing admin stuff! Other than the hours of reading and looking at figures,I am basically helping them with the Adminstrative stuff. They all will be flying of one by one to survey ship and meet the ships engineers. Some going china, some Angola.

Uncle Wong and Raymong(yes that is the correct spelling, He always joke that my name more stylo than his) keep saying take my time, but I just don feel fulfilled!!! Hiaz, I must work harder than before! I really pray that I learn everything fast!! I hope to be able to grasp everything fast!!

Hiaz..Jus can't stand the know-nothing-contribute-zero feeling!

2009-06-21T02:09:00.001-07:00

Deeper in love

2009-06-19T09:52:00.001-07:00

Today bible was simply the best of the series so far. It just gets better and better. It is one of those service/bible study where the presence of God is soooo strong. Towards the end of the bible study, you can literally feel the love of God saturating the whole hall. As the meeting was ending, I turn around and realised that many people were weeping and with tears in my eyes, I can't help but feel that God is sooo real in my life. I want to work towards what pastor preach about being a mature christian.

I can't really describe my current feelings in words. Perhaps like what Pst Tan said, it is the experience that you went through. The feeling of love of God that really impacted my heart. Like the shulamite woman, after experiencing God, you can't help but want to have more and more of Him.

The church is where God is. Seek him there when you are in the wilderness.

Day1

2009-06-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

Tml will be my first official day starting work. Real work.

My department consisted mainly of very experienced colleagues. Those who have work at least 7 years on ground and 3 years in the office. It feels abit threatening when I first stepped into the office, like you are the young chap waiting to be slaughtered. HAHA. Glad to find a guy there who is of the same age as me. I think the next one nearest in age to us is about at least 10 to 15 years older than us.

Spoke to my department boss about my job scope. Basically i have darn lots of the things to learn. I am given a few manuals to read for this few days. My job basically involved calculating the cost for the projects. Sometimes we work in team, sometimes alone, depending on the size on the projects. Eventually when i get better, the ultimate aim is for me to get business for the yard. I think this is going to be abit challenging. It may takes me years to reach that stage and also, drinking and having dinner with the clients is not really my cup of tea.

Anyway tml will be my first hands on day. Hope to get my name card fast. And should be topping my table with some food and drinks. Time to bribe the seniors! haha

Orientation

2009-06-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

Just came back from day 1 of the 4 days of orientation.Had a pretty tight schedule today. Visted and spoke to managers from 8 different departments. It was a great way to know about the whole company. Tml will be meeting the production departments. It is also a great meet up with the diff scholars. The company has freeze head count and I think most of those coming in will be on bond.

Saw my old shop ARV1 still around! ARV2 is there already. Too bad I am not in production. I will be starting off as an commercial executive doing estimating. The good thing is it is safe and it pays well( OT for both weekday and weekends) but not as dynamic as production.Production on it's own has pro and con. They all complained they need a understanding family cos they work on sat(for sure) and sometimes sun.

Suddenly everything seems better than when i intern. Perhaps because i am going to be permament staff but I hope things will be every better.

Hull, Piping, SPC, Electrical, Mechanical tml!

Starting Work

2009-06-14T08:26:00.000-07:00

I am officially starting work is less than 8 hrs time. Going to hit the bed soon.

I will be posted into the estimating department. Told a senior in another shipyard about in and she was pretty shocked. Because this department usually need experience and it deals with tons of numbers. Good and bad. I jut hope may God's grace be with me. I will take it as it come.

Tml will be more of orientation. Going through the contract and signing. Making of yard pass etc. Perhaps will see some old friends there. There are 3 other scholars going back together with me. I feel normalised. HAHA.

Anyway I have decided to start teaching tuition. Need to help pay off my school loan. After calculating, i realised that i don have much left after paying off my bills and expenses. Not much even to save. Anyone got lobang please tell me! Thanks!

Making time

Once I have turned my face from thee

2009-06-12T09:56:00.000-07:00

Today bible study was simply awesome. In my honest opinion, I feel that it is a real pity to miss thiw BS if you can come down. This whole series is about our relationship with God. How we move through the phases of love.

Pst Kong shared so much today! How he was attacked, the trials that each believers have to go through. The wilderness where something good will come out of it if we were to endure and trust God.

During the whole BS, I was trying to reflect upon myself. The areas in my life that I can further improve on. At the end of the BS, we were all on our knees and worshipping God.

I really hope that Pst will make this a regular event. I missed the time in the past where we have BS until really late on friday. I totally agree with Pst about this being the solid food. I simply can't wait for the next one to come!

What impacted me was the most was about the humility and the qualities that are being demostrated by a true mature christian. Immediately I reflect upon myself and the people i see around. It is really so true. Attitude is what matters. If something is wrong with your walk with God or your belief, it is clearer than you think people around you can see.

Truly we can never have enough of Him. Enter into His presence. Let not our pride or our fleshly nature hinder our walk with Him and the destiny He has install for us.

The Defining shots in a game.

2009-06-11T21:40:00.000-07:00

Like every other sports, there is a game defining moment. You win or lose because you either make or break at this point. And for Derek Fisher, he has shown not once but twice he still has what it takes to win the game.

And this in Overtime.

In my whole life, i think i only shot one such 3 pointer .Before the shot, everything was blur. Split seconds later, the feeling sinks in and you feel like you are flying. Look at Derek Fisher's smile. That's it.

Lakers leading 3-1!

Drag me to hell

2009-06-11T09:25:00.001-07:00

Just watched Drag me to hell with myrna. This is one of those show which i really let go. I screamed really loud and thank God i was sitting at the corner seat. The show is not really what i defined as a horror show, it is more like a thriller. I covered my ears most of the time cos i was expecting some loud noisy throughout the show. The story is simple and does not require much thinking.Small twist at the end. I feel it is one of the must watch show.Do catch it !

Monday I am starting work. First day will be orientation so i think should be pretty slack. I have been googling alot. It seems like estimating department usually comprise of people with experience(old) so i am not expecting people of my age or near my age there. I guess you can't have the best of both world. Hope everything will turn out ok!

IPPT is coming. I will be taking this ICT with my range.I want to pass this year!Havent touch the chin up bar since last ICT. I need someone to train with me man.Any volunteer? I feel kinda shy going to the bar alone and doing like only 2.

Time to rest!

Ha haha hahaha

2009-06-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

The original

The spoof

Peace

2009-06-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

Thank God! It was exactly 2 weeks or so when i made this prayer request!

I almost jumped and pump my fist into the air at the foodcourt. The banmian aunty must be thinking why am i grinning at her!

Sembcorp gave me a commercial position. I will be posted to the Estimation department. I guess it is about, estimation dah!

Granted, I was warned of the lower pay, the lower chance of promotion and not as good bonus.

But hey, at least it is a job. At least it met my parents requirement. At least my GF felt ok. At least I felt the peace when i first heard about it. At least it is near to what i want to do - related to financial side.

Phew. Finally. Unless some big changes happen, I will be starting work next mon.

YES LA!!! Finally settled it once and for all.

Saints and Soldiers

2009-06-08T10:56:00.000-07:00

Just watched Saints and Soldiers. Felt that it is a so so show. Read on the cover of the VCD and it seems to have won quite alot awards. I guess the only touching part came only at the very end. Sometimes the bigger picture don't always get registered in your brain because of the situation and where the tough gets going , the going gets tough.

Talking about movies, there has been quite a few good one that is going on. Perhaps tml can watch either terminator or angels and demons. Wanted to watch these shows a few weeks ago but kinda turn off by the reviews given by some friends. Somehow recently alot of my friends have been giving me rather good comments about them so i guess they mght be worth a ttry before i start work.

Talking about starting work, i am supposed to start next week. But till today i haven't gotten to know the department i am supposed to be in. Met up with the Old POS guys. They were really "shocked" when i told them about the Banks. One thing we do agree on is that it is a good way to gain some experience. In any case, i decided to whack a few more applications. i think YT kinda reminded me at this time, it is always good to apply for more.His brother applied for 40!! Talk about trying!

Inevitably there are some concern friends who asked me about the person tagging on my board. With the help of technology, i'm able to log in to my tagboard and trace the person(!) Almost wanted to shout surprise! I think all i can say, if saying all these stuff can make u feel better for the hurt u feel i have caused, then go ahead ba. I can't really help when the ball is in your court.I think sometimes you got to remind yourself.The whole world is not like you.

It is 2am and still i can't sleep. Been resting for so many days. Hopefully my gum will recover totally tml. At least till when i start work.

Dis-appointment

2009-06-08T08:36:00.001-07:00

Today Myrna and I went to the prayer meeting at Riverwalk. It was a time of ministering and God spoke to me about this one thing that has been bothering me for quite abit.

Disappointment

I think one of the things that I find it hardest to let go is that i fail to meet the expectation of people. Especially those that have high hope of me, sometimes, the person can even be myself. Stepping into that room and smiling at Pastor sort of brings back the past disappointments that I have caused and the disappointments I had. God gave me a vision and it really comforts me. I know the only thing to do is to focus and keep walking. I want to get over the valley and up the mountains again.

Change disappointment into a new appointment!

Sun's greatness

2009-06-07T04:46:00.000-07:00

Sun is going to appear on another magazine! Read her interview on 8 Days last week and she answered the questions really well! Having read the interview, i can't help but feel the reporter is driving at something. I guess it can't be helped.

I was pondering after reading a report on a young South Dakota rancher who won the biggest unshared lottery of history. $232 million! Before the lottery , he was a struggling guy whose family is trying to meet ends. Before you think his life is going to smooth sailing, statistics has shown that many of the winners of such lottery hd their lives becoming worse than before. The dramatic change in their background make them lose their trust for people around them and also the new responsibility that he faces.

I think Sun did a really awesome job. Facing all the critics, she went against all odd and not to make a name for herself , but to do what God has destined for her to do. She not only impacted the music industry across the globe but also the lives of many poor and homeless. Countless of school in china was impacted by her, orphanages she built, the things she contributed and the joy she brought to the less fortunated.

Think again, how many hollywood stars had their lives going down the drain. Take britney spears for example. I think for Sun, all her molding in church prior to her singing career has strengthen her in the marketplace. This weekend , we are going to have a celebrity weekend. FIR and F4 Vanesse are the few that are coming. This is how far she can impact the music industry and getting people saved.

Just like Jesus was in the marketplace in his time of ministry, I hope i can be mover in the marketplace. Without a doubt, the 3 greatest things that shaped the society are money, power and knowledge.Whether one believes it or not, you need one of the three to change society. A.R. Bernard is my inspiration. I long to achieve what he achieve and do what he does in New York.

It has been 3 weeks after i am back from graduate trip. I really hope for more interviews to come. Hopefully tml the email for "that job" will come!

Engineering

2009-06-06T00:13:00.000-07:00

After so many years of physics and engineering, i kinda feel like a change of environment. Went to check out some positions in which national park is hiring, it is rather interesting what they have there..

Position 1

You will work as a member of the Special Squad team in the Environmental Health Department/North-East Regional Office. You are required to:
- Conduct raids on illegal hawkers and take enforcement action by executing an arrest and issuing a notice to attend court
- Carry out investigations on illegal hawking
- Conduct joint enforcement work with other agencies
- Make entries into the Enforcement application system and put up statement of facts, give evidence in court and facilitate police investigations into illegal hawking related offences
- Assist in seizing goods/food from the illegal hawking site and undertake its disposal.
- Be deployed for special duties and static duties in illegal hawking hotspots at any date/time including public holidays at short notices

Position 2

We are looking for individuals with passion and interest in understanding and predicting the weather and climate. You will be responsible to provide weather forecasting services and expert advice to support the weather sensitive segments of the economy and general public. You will be required to conduct research and development to improve forecasting techniques. The job provides the candidate with specialized skills & knowledge of the use of advanced technology & specialized weather monitoring equipment (for example radar, satellite & seismic monitoring). Professional training in Meteorology will be provided.

Position 3
You will play a key role in nature conservation and maintenance for the areas under your care. You will be responsible to plan, implement and monitor nature conservation programs in the field. On a daily basis, you will also be responsible for the good upkeep, maintenance and inspection of the area for the safety and enjoyment of visitors. As part of your nature conservation work, you will conduct nature outreach programs for visitors, such as lead guided tours, organize community involvement programs and give talks on nature conservation. You will be part of a team based on site, and will be expected to be a good team-player as well as independent worker.

Interesting!

Interviews

2009-06-04T05:02:00.001-07:00

Just got called up again for another bank interview. Think it is the same 2k miserable pay. I seriously wants to go into Banking. But with such a low pay, how do i even survive? I think at least as an engineer, I still can choose to go into engineering. One of my first class business friend is going to take up the NTUC management trainee program! With all due respect, but i was thinking as a first class business student and mind u, she was shortlisted to be the possible Valedictorian of her cohort, she can go for something even better.

I am going to apply for as many possible opening as i can. Of course those i have interest in. Someone told me i am too practical and go for money, I almost wanted to burst out laughing. I guess everyone is entitled to his or her view. Personally i take whatever opportunities that is available and consider them. One of which was a civil servant job which pays well but had a pretty high stress level. I guess as i told MH, i will be putting it as the last choice because it is not what i am keen in. Perhaps the travelling and meeting of ppl, but not the high stress level. Even though the starting pay is 4k and high chance of going into management.

I am glad that i went through the PhD, the Sembcorp Marine interview, the Banks interview. I seriously don't know what will be the one i am eventually going to take. I believe with all my heart i have no need to hurry. One thing for sure, the interviews really trained me in my presentation skills, my knowledge of the various industries. Most importantly, it is a self discovering process. I wish i had more choice. Basically i am jus fluctuating between engineering and banking, Someone told me MOE is a good choice, because of the good money(qouted by the same person). I guess if money was the reason, i think perhaps i would have taken on PhD which pays me so much better.

Life is short. Don't live in your well. Come out and experience how great and wonderful this world can be.

SCB

2009-06-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

Just came back from a jog. First time running after 2 to 3 weeks, felt weak..did about 4k plus. Given that i am not gifted physically, i need to work harder to meet the mark.

Today went for SCB interview. It went extremely well. I guessed the HR lady really like me. She even provided me some hints to the technical questions. We had a long interview which lasted about 45 mins. I was the worst dressed candidate there. Everyone wore a tie..ok..except the girls..some who were there for meetings wore blazers...i was really the odd one out. But well, she told me she will see me for the next round.

Then came the bomb, she told me it is going to be 2k and one year contract. 2k? eat grass( as put by one of my friend in engineering sector now). I think it is normal for such a reaction from a logical and practical engineer. It is extremely low!

The good news is that the HR of my parent company ask me if i want to try commercial side! This is the best of the situation. Doing business related stuff and serving my bond!

Well..let's see how things will unfold.

Results

2009-05-29T09:40:00.000-07:00

Today marks the final time i am getting results as an undergraduate.

I didn't do as well as last sem but still, i managed to get 1A+ 1A and A- for my final year project which is counted as 2 modules.I am really amazed by what God i doing. Esp this FYP, i thought i did pretty badly. I rem at the end of the presentation week, i was pretty depressed as my fellow classmates seem to have a much better time during their oral presentation. I rem clearly my examiner kept shaking his head and i only can smile back at him. Looking at the results, the first thing i did was to lift my head up and thank God.

looking back, it has been an amazing 8 sem where my CAP NEVER dropped once in my 4 years in NUS. It really move from glory to glory. If i were to get my dean's list , it would be my 3rd one. I am really amazed at what God can do through me.

I was at the church wide bible study when i was prayin about my job and God spoke to me. Matt 6:33. Simple theory. Choose the one that enables me to impact the marketplace and do his will. what is the position that enable me to keep His kingdom first over everything?

4.28

Pursue of your dream

2009-05-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

In the pursue of your dream, things can get tough..

You often hear..

the nagging voices of those with good intentions but no idea of the big picture..

the discouraging voice of fear in you that attacks you whenever you think big..

the fear of unknown that creeps up to you and makes u worry constantly..

the feeling of disillusion about whether you are heading in the right direction.

It is not surprising that many chose the easy way out, including me.

Don't be mistaken, it is perfectly alright to choose the safe way, the well-seasoned path taken by many before, the path with clear directions indicated by neon lights.

But take for a moment and think, is it worth your effort? To go after something many had gone before, to do something you chose out of comfort, to try something because you know it is proven and what you are going to get is predictable?

Take a moment and live life! You only got one shot in life! I do not want to settle for the mediocre nor do I want to settle for the easy way out. If I fail trying to achieve it, I rather fail falling forward.

Live your dream. Live your life.

Grad trip

2009-05-26T09:48:00.000-07:00

I am back!!!

Finally after 9 days...in fact it is more like 10 days 8 night. We left early on sun morning and came back late mon night. I must say this trip is pretty worth it. We spent less than 2k each and we get to go to so many places! We went to Taiwan, Hongkong, Macau and Shenzhen. Initially was thinking that going Macau and Shenzhen is pretty hard but in fact these places are pretty small, we virtually go to all the places we wanted to except Macau tower!!

I wanted to bungee jump there! it has the tallest bungee jump in the world but the weather was pretty bad and i can't really do it. Ocean park had a 10 storey vertical drop but personally i feel the rides here aren't good enough to give me a kick.

The trip was really good. Personally i don like to stay in hostel and do back packing except maybe in Europe where the cost is so high but the weather can make up for it. The daily routine is to wake up, eat breakfast,head to different places as plan, eat tons of good food and shop abit before heading back to our hotel and rest! I seriously miss the hotel!! hhahaha.. Esp taiwan where we stay in a 4 star hotel!!
Hongkong was really packed! we really maximise each day and enjoy the places we went!

From Taipei 101 to New life church to the different memorial hall to night markets to ximending(toilet resturant) to ladies street to Ocean Park to Macau to vernice-look alike hotel to Casinos to The Peak to the Jumbo floating resturant to Shenzhen and many more! i have lost count of the places we went to!!lookin back, i think i really maximise every min we spend, particularly during the later part of the trip!

1000 plus pictures plus tons of video...how to upload sia

Grad trip

2009-05-16T10:33:00.001-07:00

I will be away for Grad trip in Taiwan + Hongkong + Macau. See you in two weeks time!

2009-05-12T09:58:00.001-07:00

Dont Look Back In Anger - Oasis

Hunting!

2009-05-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

Exams has ended like last week? It sure felt like long..i mean it felt at least like 2 to 3 weeks! hahaha...Anyway i have been hunting for jobs for the last 1 to 2 weeks. Job market is really bad but i hope i can still find a Job. Praying for a good and ideal job to come!

CS just replied me and they told me their opening will only come in July! Meaning i start work earliest only in July- August, if i get through. Hope i can secure a place somewhere fast!!

Been reading up on trading for the last few days. Downloaded some really awesome Ebooks.Personally I don believe in looking at the stocks and try to understand. Every book i read all say the same thing! Trading and Investment involve lots and lots of hard work! The more you know ,the lower the risk! I guess at least this is something to keep me occupied for the remaining time until Grad Trip comes! Can't wait!

I need to start running! my belly getting bigger!

job hunting

2009-05-06T08:52:00.001-07:00

no sound no colour.

Please let me know fast. I am desperate!

How I ended my university life with a bang

2009-05-05T07:57:00.000-07:00

I had this funny feeling the moment i got on 96. This unexplained feeling that something is going to happen.

I met steve on the bus, chit chat and walk into MPSH to have our temperature taken before entering the hall.

Suddenly this feeling "told" me it is my cheatsheet.Suddenly it struck me.
"Is it one page or one sheet with both side?"

i freaked out!

" Oh shucks, is it only 1 page?"

i look around desperately ,trying to see if anyone is flipping over their cheatsheet.
My heart almost dropped where th girl next to me flipped over and it is empty!!

I almost stood up when i saw this guy 2 rows away flipping back and forth on his cheatsheet.

*pump my fist in the air gently*
" heng!! both sided"

then came the exam paper...

"blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah"
"blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah"
"blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah"
" You are allowed to bring in one piece of two sided, handwritten cheatsheet for this exam"

*hallejulah*

My cheatsheet is typed!

I raised up my hand, told the examiner my problem and she took the cheatsheet away.

But thank God, i kinda rem all the formula. I calm myself down(The exam has started for 5 mins by then) and work carefully.

What a way to end my final paper of my university life!

心里唯一

2009-05-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

The best CD i gotten. PM me if you want borrow!

Careers

2009-05-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

Met a friend today and he told me he is going to be a doctor! He is actually a chem engineer but decided to pursue a medicine degree after he graduate this sem! In fact all graduating engineering student was given this opportunity to do a medicine degree in 4 years but it cost 35k a year in school fees! I salute this guy! he told me he don really care about the money but he wants to fulfill his passion as a doctor! woo!

Talking about which , i have not gotten a job as of now. Technically speaking, not that i don have, but the ideal one haven't come along. I am actually seriously ok with going back my bond company, jus that i wish to give my parents the peace of mind. PhD wie, it is really too low paying. It just give me a feeling that it is a risky move to take. I am hoping to get a place in SC, CS or CB.

Had a great time at my darling place. Spent some quality time with her! hehe.. had dinner! hopefully we can go for our grad trip together!! love you dear!

Time to jog!

2009-04-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

Engineers , read this

http://www.salary.sg/2008/engineering-and-technology-careers-are-not-valued-singapore-is-high-cost-low-tech/

school bus

2009-04-26T06:31:00.000-07:00

waiting for bus at the bus stop opposite central lib. Just concluded one day of studying in school on a sunday. Met up with a few friends, some was arranged and some by coincidence. nevertheless it is still good to see some familiar faces on a sunday in school.

Somehow I began to question if I need to go to such an extent to do well. As always, I began to reason the need and driving force behind it.. I guess everyone just hope to have a better future.

The bus seems to be taking usually long. Perhaps it is just me wanting to get home fast. It has been a pretty long day. But somehow I used to be used to such a lifestyle near exams. Really feel like going on my usual 5km jog but I think I will leave it to tue, after my FNA paper tml.

E71 rocks, I can put down my thoughts easily as and when I like. Not to mention the ease of note taking during conference. No wonder it was nominated best asia phone by cnet asia

Oasis

2009-04-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

Nice song i heard during the zone chillout.The other one is pretty nice too. Andrew was awesome. He should be in singapore idol. One of the best singer i know personally.

Today met up with an Ex banker and shared with me how he was from DB* before the saga took place. And man, it really sound corrupted inside there. Perhaps that is why this thing took place.

John avazini taught something really useful. Using the examples from bible and showing us when to start investing.

Really miss my darling! Can't wait to go out with her on mon!!

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you but
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

The spider in NUS

2009-04-24T07:14:00.000-07:00

Someone without facebook can watch this video here! Today went to business canteen to eat dinner with kenneth and the stall aunty asked him about the spiderman..haha..think spidy is famous.

decided to take a break from studying FNA. I read the notes through 3 times. Did the tutorial 2 times over again. Did all the past year qn and got the answer right. I think tml i will review the text and notes to be sure.

Citibank reply me fast!

Finally gotten my manhattan card! I think it looks much better than the one from citibank!

Finally settled my grad trip. Supposed to go with my Me clique, then not going. Then going again. I am pretty happy with the places we are going. As of now, we have booked the hotels, flights and 1.5 days of tour. I think it is pretty cheap, for 9 days and 8 nights, hotel stay , flying cathay , we paid 1060, with meals throw in! that's cheap.. I heard taipei food is like singapore...cost about2 to 3, hongkong more ex but depends where you go. Likely will take the train to macau , and china during our hongkong stay! and yes! disneyland! oceanworld! I am like a mountain turtle, never been there.

After the graduate trip, i think i will head to bali or phuket for a short get away..heard it is cheap , at least according to my travel agency!

By then i should have decided the place to go, in any case i should be starting work july if not, phd in august. I guess i will study financial stuff( anyone keen to guide me?) and do some preparation work depending where i go.

Life can be so exciting!

Direction

2009-04-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

6 more days to my decision to whether to do PhD. I have to decide by 28th april.

Frankly speaking, i am 60% for it.

The reasons are mainly because i don't know the prospects and whether i really like it. As of now, i am pretty ok to do research for 1 to 2 years? but i am worried about what if i don like? The exciting project does push me to do it also.

Given all else equal, i prefer a job in the financial sector. Maybe because i want a break, or perhaps i am interested in numbers and dynamic working environment. Somehow the pay does not play an impt role. what matters is i can do what i like.

Then it is sembcorp. This is the least possible, namely due to the strong objection from my parents.

safe choice with certain degree of confirmed success: PhD
Risky move that could offset everything but possible promise of rewarding career: FS

Crossroad

2009-04-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

colorblind

2009-04-17T08:56:00.001-07:00

taken from Serene's blog

Morning rants

2009-04-16T18:07:00.000-07:00

I woke this morning and had the exact feeling i had 3 years ago. This feeling of "shucks it is morning! another day has passed and exams are drawing near!"
But this time, things are different, I feel so much more relaxed( cos i got 2 papers only).

Then i think back how i was like 3 years ago, man , it sure was different back then.After doing the usually deep thinking and analysis, I came to a conclusion.

Life is short.It moves fast and things change so easily.
As i looked back, i realised if i have a chance to go into a worm hole, i would change some aspects of my life. Like certain decisions i made.

Then again, i can't do anything to change anything and also there is nothing i can do to make sure that this doesn't happen again.
Something we jus have to do that which is the best course of path and keep our fingers cross.

Guess I don't want to look back and say what if i have done my PhD then.

HAHAHAHHA

2009-04-14T19:07:00.000-07:00

gotten from sherlene's blog. Super funny!!

Vision

2009-04-14T16:46:00.000-07:00

My dad has been trying to convince me to take up the offer. From dinner, to watching Tv, to reading papers, to using the net, he kept asking me to go for it.

i think the unknown is a big if. Is this the promise land that i should head to? If i were go to work, it gives me stability and greater flexibility, i know what to expect in say 5 years. Taking PhD is no doubt good, but i don't know how life will be after that? can i get a job ? will it be to difficult for me to cope? or am i giving myself too much pressure and thinking too much?

money aside, i like to study and acquire knowledge. I think this will lean me over to PhD.

A woman of wisdom reminded me that we all need courage to make choices and this is so true.

Back to statistics!

FYP = Finished Your Project

2009-04-14T02:32:00.000-07:00

Today i jus ended my FYP presentation. It was terrible. I was asked questions i don't even understand. My examiner kept shaking his head. I could only smile at him --_--

It was a terrible feeling.

I arrived earlier and spoke to the PhD working in Nus. He advised me not go into PhD unless i am really keen to go research. If i happen to not like, like some, i would actually go into other areas like some of masters and PhD grads. Even for RI, the job is contractual , i might not stay for long.

This kinda of shock me. Especially coming from a PhD holder. I don't really know how bad is the job prospect.He also warn me that it is not usual for a PhD to finish in time,meaning likely i will have to go on for a few months without stipend.

Then when i got home, the email arrived...

Dear Jin Hui

Congratulations!
We are pleased to inform you that you have been granted provisional admission to
Doctor of Philosophy
in the Department of Mechanical Engineering, subject to you obtaining at least a Class II Honours (Upper Division) for August 2009 Intake (commencing 3 August 2009). Registration date for the programme at NUS is on Tuesday, 28 July 2009 between 2.00 pm to 5.00 pm.

Your offer package with full details of this admission will be posted to you soon.
We appreciate a reply as to whether you accept or not accept the offer by 28 April 2009. If we do not hear from you by this date, we shall deem that you have withdrawn your application.

Once again, please accept our heartiest congratulations on your successful application to NUS.

God what path should i take?!

Bitter water of Marah

2009-04-10T01:18:00.000-07:00

Exodus 15:23-24
And when they came to Marah, they could not drink of the waters of Marah, for they were bitter: therefore the name of it was called Marah.The people complained about Moses by asking, "What are we supposed to drink?"

Somehow it is really divine. As soon as i put down the 30 mins call, Pst Phil( i happened to let my itune run random and Pst Phil came on.) mentioned these verses and on leadership.

"The capacity of water has a certain level. Once it reaches its capacity, it changes form. It is this form , steam, that causes a kettle to whistle.when you reach the level of your capacity, and you can't take it, you whistle as you complain. The level of your complaining indicates the level of your capacity.

How much can you take before you start complaining? Can you read 500 worrying emails in one hour and keep your act together? can you have 5 angry church members calling you up and keep a good attitude? can you have 5 bank manager calling you up for loan and keep your act? can you say sorry to 500 angry members for the things they have done and not what you did and not get cranky about the people in the church and cg. Can you keep a victorious attitude when you are beaten in school? can you love people when they hate you? can you love your parents when they reject you?

Can you stay in faith when everything is going wrong? Can you not blame God when it seems He is the one allowing these unfair things in life to happen? what is your capacity?

Cos your capacity will determine the level and influence of your leadership in this life. If you blow up and break out when the water is abit hot, when you meet the water of mara, you will go nowhere."

Just in time for me.

Can't help but say this

2009-04-09T05:19:00.000-07:00

Right now trying to call up those friends i am reaching out to for Easter. Got a rude shock from a friend. Haven't felt that for a long time , really felt like lashing back at the person. Knowing how she is suffering from stress, i was trying to see if everything is alright. Guess she isn't really concern about what others are thinking but herself.

Saying this make me feel convicted too. In this world, rules that govern how things work never change. Something you might hear people complain how things are bad, how they are mistreated, how they are not good enough. On the contrary, you never hear that from certain people. They don't complain about how people "mistreat" them, they seldom if never talk about how the world is unfair.

So what separate the 2 groups? The word is simply A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E.

Let's face it. According to statistic, murphy's law , buddha law, taoist chant, the bible, whatever teaching that is sensible, EVERYONE face difficulties and unhappy time. It is your attitude that really makes you stand out and how far you can go.

I alway remind myself not wallow in self pity nor will i go to the other extreme of being totally self centred and care about myself.The world will not stop spinning just because you are feeling sad , self pity does not change much of anything. Simply because the world does not spin around you.

How i wish to shake the person and ask her to wake up her idea. Not because i want to vent my anger, but what she is like today is because of her attitude. Haiz.
How can i help myself to help them to lead a happier and more fruitful life?

From the bottom of my heart, i do hope there are people out there trying to correct me in the areas that I'm lacking. I do not want to live in self denial or ignorance.

AWESOME

2009-04-05T09:07:00.000-07:00

Got a Cool Easter Drama coming out. Do let me know if you have intention to join me! It will be AWESOME! Every year all my friends who came all said it was good! drop me a sms at 90272642 if you are keen.

:>

Sore Throat

2009-04-03T18:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up with a score throat this morning. Been shouting a little for the last one week, think i need to rest my throat before it gets worse.

Today i woke up and got to remind myself how wonderful life is. Sometimes we just take things for granted and forget what we have and focus on the negative.

Been analyzing the financial report of Cre*tive for the whole of one day. I seriously feel this company is going to go bust soon. It has been making losses for quite a few years.

My PhD project prof just called me and asked me how come i never updated him about the interview! I got shocked! Perhaps my FYP prof is really slack. This PhD prof seems more concern about my stuff. Hopefully it is a good decision to work under him.

Back to report.

you lose

2009-04-02T09:23:00.000-07:00

Today i was praying and thanking God for everything that He has done for me.It is really divine. Wait till you hear how God put people in my life that direct me into where i am today.

I was reminded that how well you do in life is really determined by your attitude. Yes, to the Winners in life, keep it up. To the "losers", those who think life sucks and everyone around you does, take a mirror and observe your lifestyle, your thinking and your faith. I am not sorry to say that who you are today, is result of your attitude, not your surrounding.Like what the bible says, as a man thinks, so is he. If you think you are alway on the losing end, think again.

If how well you do in life is determined by how you choose to react to it, what affects the way you react to it?

The answer is Faith.

If you have faith in God, you know all His promises to you are yes and Amen.

If you have faith in God that He is molding you, you will know all the trials and tribulations He allows in your life are part of the training plan.

If you have faith in God that he has the best plan for you, you will face every setback yet trusting that He shall direct your path.

If you have faith in God, you will do what His word says despite what is happening because you know and you know it is true.

If you have faith in God, you will not look back and regret about yesterday, sigh at the conditions you are in today and worry about tomorrow because God will provide.

If you have faith in God, you will know what you must do.

Have faith!

The Interview

2009-04-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

" So tell me what you learn about Einstein's theory? You took that module right?(refering to great ideas in contemporary physics)"

" well, i learnt about relativity. General and specific relativity. I also learnt about some other theories he came up with..."

" Ic, so tell me what is all about."

(Freeze for a second)

"well, (activating smoke grenade one) it depends on which one you are taking about. There is the general one and special ( or is it specific) relativity. It depends on the frame you are in. If you are travelling faster and faster , time is supposed to slow down."

"Oh you mean the clock tick slower?"

" well, (activating smoke grenade 2 to 99), theoretically yes. As you approach the speed of light, time is supposed to slow down. Take the black hole for example, as you approach it, you travel faster until the entrance, where you are moving at speed of light, then when you enter, time is supposedly to go in reversal....."

" ok. I thought quantum theory is more important? Don't they teach you? it is very practical."

"o ya, they did touched on that too. Einstein won the nobel prize not for his theory on relativity but photoelectric effect....blah blah"

After the interview, i stepped out of the room and wiped the perspiration off my eyebrows. They really grilled me. From relativity to life purpose, to so many why-not qn. Don't feel i did exceptionally well but i hope i managed to convince them. It is really up to God.

adultery

2009-03-30T09:10:00.000-07:00

After reading the commentS from hh, i guess it is better for me to reply over here. Tag board are way way too small.

First thing first, Skull is NEVER an affliation of satanic force. You may feel that it is related to death, horror , past? i am not sure. To illustrate it clearly, what is satanic? 666 or the inverted cross( with Jesus)is. I think there too many self-imposed rules about what is "allowed" for christians and what is not. God never said you can't wear skull. But God did mentioned 666 is the mark of the devil.

This leads to the point of perception. Why would unbelievers think that way? This is simply due to the lack of knowledge and mis-informed ideas. Now, how do we know muslim can eat only halal food? Because they provided us with the informations and they practise it, hence we ,as non muslims, know about it. I guess this "misinformed" affliation is partly the faults of some christians.

Talking about adultery, firstly if i wear an artistic shirt and this can result in " It might cause others to go own the road of adultery". I would honestly, from the bottom of my heart say that the person committing that is just using me as an excuse. i got to admit everyone has a different tolerance of "art" but if the church would to stay away from the mildest form of "art"(then again, who sets the limit"), we will be "obsolete" in no time. This does not mean i purposely wear a sexually offensive shirt to "attempt" to tempt someone into adultery. i totally agreed with limits( like for kids ) but the pt i want to bring across is, let's not become too legalistic.

This again goes back to the idea of perception. If you are pure in your mind, a couple kissing might cause you to think about love, family etc.. to a defiled mind, even two numbers 69 can lead to oral sex( yes that's what some of my friends tell me!). So does the fault lies with the shirt or the person thinking that?

To sum it all, i would say let's not be "holier" than God and set all these self-imposed rules. As the churches around the world are moving towards having greater relevancy to the society, it is extremely important that we are not taking a step back by embracing these rules.

This link provide a much clearer explaination.

http://www.answers2prayer.org/bible_questions/Answers/legalism/legalism.html

Perception/ hope

2009-03-29T03:59:00.000-07:00

http://philpringle.wordpress.com/2009/03/27/perception/

Excellent viewpoint. It really makes me realised alot of thing.

What a wonderful service today!! I was asking God for direction in life and He really spoke to me thru the service. It speaks exactly for my situation.

Exodus 8:22

And I will sever in that day the land of Goshen, in which my people dwell, that no swarms of flies shall be there; to the end you may know that I am the LORD in the middle of the earth.

The choice to dwell in God's land, the time period to step out in faith is short. Once you missed it, you will not have it again. Just like the exmaple he shared about the children of Israel, they missed the time to enter the promise land for their lack of faith and they will not go back anymore. I was particularly impacted by the way pst Phil said about going after the dream God has for us. " It is precisely when things are bad, that is why you need faith to do it. Why do you think the water is not still when peter walked on it? everyone knows still water is easier to walk on. It is because you need faith to reach the dream God has set before you. To go where not many people has gone." To have the faith to step out!

I was pondering what do people need most to live? is it money? is it love? is it support? is it human rights?

God gave me a revelation that it is Hope. Hope form the basis where Love takes you to great heights.

1 Corinthians 13:13

But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

notice the trend, it is faith hope and love. Faith comes first then hope. You need to have faith in God before you can have Hope that all the promise that He said will come to pass. Once you go pass the faith and hope stage, you began to love those around you. This is the ultimate aim in life.

Have faith! Be hopeful! Love others!

The Express

2009-03-26T11:00:00.000-07:00

It is 2am and i just finished watching this show, The Express. It is no doubt one of the best show i watched for the last one year. Inspiring and really stirrs me up.

In the show, the lead died in the end at a young age of 23. Although he died young, he did what normal people could not have achieved with their whole life time. A must watch!!

T shirt

2009-03-26T07:28:00.000-07:00

My dear got me a real nice Tshirt from Affliction.

It is a signature tee for Chris Horodecki, an MMA fighter. Affliction has a habit of creating unique personal tee for fighters, be it boxers or MMA fighters. I got another one which is foiled. I kinda like the foiled tee because those cheap brands or imitations can't really produce the same effect and personally i feel they are different from normal tee! Thanks dear! I really really like the tee..ahah..the more i look, the more i like it.

I look into my cupboard and i realised i got 2 Affliction and 2 Ed hardy tee. Total value = $420. Shocking! wait a min, i got only 2 and that 2 is the cheapest among the 4. The rest are pressie from my darling! We decided we will not get such expensive stuff unless it is our bday! if not, we will eat grass..haha..I think i have more than enough of such tee. :> Can't wait to wear the new one this sat for service!

look into my eyes :>

Life

2009-03-25T09:17:00.000-07:00

Life is unpredictable. Totally.

On a happier note, I had a day out with darling!! haha...went to sentosa for a short swim then head to vivo for dinner and movie. After movie, we went to the roof top for our present exchange. Cos it is like our 1st month anniversay! She got me a new Affliction shirt! And we agreed to budget our gift next time!!

This one month has been pretty ok....really glad for all the things that we went through. Hope to move onto something greater!! hehe..

Really tired now. Shall update tml!!

Love ya Darling!!

Tired

2009-03-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

Here Comes The Sun - Bon Jovi

Slept the whole day...time to get some work done...

Before i go on...the new mouse show..

Don't look like a nice show.

Anyway when Wayne told me there is POS, i was really excited.

Then did i realised it is going to be a combined Uni one?!

" Huh Combine? disappointing la"

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right

Run

2009-03-23T08:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i went for a jog at the track across the road. I used to go there when i started to run a year back but decided to switch to running along pavement. However, yesterday my mood wasn't good and i decided to head back there and have a out-of-the-norm run.

The track is about 300m so to hit 5km , i need to run about 17 rounds. I usually run as fast as i cn for the first 8 rounds before enduring through the rest. The track is usually frequent by uncles and aunties and occasionally, younger and fitter runners.

Yesterday was one such day.

I was at my 12th round when i spot him stretching at one corner. His body is well toned and he looks fast. After my 13th round, he sort of disappear. I just kept running, faster, cos i don like the fact someone will overtake me.

At my 14th round, i heard footsteps behind. I knew instinctively it is him. I pick up my pace and refuse to let him over take me. I kept pushing and opening up my stride to gain speed.

But alas, he still overtook me. As i see his back view getting smaller and smaller, i still persisted on. trying to get as close to him as possible.

As i completed my 17th round, i didn't managed to catch up with him. But it doesn't matter. In life there is good days and bad days, some days you lose some days you win.I still felt good because i know i did my best. Perhaps after a few month of training, even under the same condition, i might be able to prevent him from overtaking me.

What matters most is not how i started the race, but everytime how i choose to end it.

Giving my best for His clory.

teenager in love

2009-03-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Each time we have a quarrel
It almost breaks my heart
'Cause I'm so afraid that we will have to part

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

One day I feel so happy
Next day I feel so sad
I guess I'll learn to take the good with the bad

'Cause each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

I cried a tear for nobody but you
I'll be a lonely one if you should say we're through
Well if you want to make me cry
That won't be so hard to do
If you should say goodbye
I'd still go on loving you

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love

I cried a tear for nobody but you
I'll be a lonely one if you should say we're through
Well if you want to make me cry
That won't be so hard to do
And if you should say goodbye
I'd still go on loving you

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love
Why must I be a teenager in love

Heard this song while playing Guitar hero. I got 2 different version on my hp!! it is quite nice cos i can listen to the song i play. nice!

Anyone?!

2009-03-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

Just feels weird...

Really feels like going to sungei buloh to take some pictures and enjoy the nature.. Enjoy the trees and flowers and the different interesting animals that might pop up...

Really feels like joining POS and throwing some girls...Have a great work out and put up a top performance...to give our best smile and blow the house down...

Really feels like catching tons of movies and enjoy every single of them...the excitment of watching the different shows..the different experience...

Really feels like hitting the beach..go play some volleyball and kick some waves...Sun tan and enjoy the Sun, Sea and Sand...

Really feels like asking a large group of friends out for an outing...to do something we really like...

Really feels like playing some basketball, captain's ball or anything physical...team sports particularly....

Can't help but really feel like doing all these!

Today

2009-03-21T20:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and you know in your mind it is not going to be good. You feel "the heat" in you rise up and you wanna let off some "flame" on someone.

I do have such days too but i always remind myself that my bad day does not means that i got to make others have a bad day too. To stay happy and positive is always a choice. A choice that you make the moment you wake up at the beginning of the day.

Smile. Today is another great day. :>

Great

2009-03-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

Firstly, thank God for the good results. Got full marks for my Financial accounting test. out of the class, i am one of the 3 who got full marks.

Secondly, thank God for Zoe conference. It was awesome! God's tangible presence is soo real.

I was reminded of my dream again. God is soo amazing. Year 1 my results was really soso...third class. But somehow, my dream died and got ressurected again. It was then and there, something broke through and there was not turning back . Today, after 2 dean's list and a mid second upper class of honours, i can look and amazed at how God put me through.

Through this period, i learnt alot of things. For one, don't be too affected by what others will say.This apply to everywhere. When i tell people i wanna get into dean's list, they laugh (not all but some). It doesn't hurt me. Why? IT IS MY DREAM. It doesn't matter what they say. I just stay focused, run my course and look to God!

Somewhere somehow people will come and give u a kick and run off. Stay cool and focused. There will bound to be such people. For me, IT DOESN"T MATTER. Cos i am running my dreams not theirs. They can say all they want.

In God I trust, the rest all needs statistics.

sian

2009-03-17T04:44:00.001-07:00

Today i felt like da bian. Maybe because i am too tired. sian.

PhD

2009-03-16T16:56:00.000-07:00

Was talking to my mum regarding my PhD application. Even though they give me their full support yet i don feel good using their money.Yes, i will be paid every month and can contribute to the monthly income, pay off my insurance and my bank loan but yet i don feel myself fulfilling the duty which i should.I need the full assurance of God before moving in.

Truely, if you like research and you can do PhD, especially in life science, chemistry etc. The sky is the limit. There is no where you can't go. I seriously don't know about engineering but after the talk by A*star, you can feel and understand how these people went from a common grad to an outstanding cream of the crop. I got a feeling i am going to love my job as a researcher. Having no same day and doing different things everyday. I shall take one step at a time.

keep praying and keep believing.

2009-03-13T18:21:00.000-07:00

This week had been tiring! Busy with FYP report, busy with financial accounting test, busy with post graduate studies and meeting up with different professors to talk about it.

At the end of this week, i finally got a glimpse of what i should do. As God's thoughts are higher than ours, I guess i really thank God for the idea which i never really thought of until yesterday. I am praying for a deferment from sembcorp and the scholarship to come NUS. Of cos, i will need to find a good professor who can help me and provide me an interesting project.

Thanks to my dear Myrna who is alway there to hear me analyse about what to do. oooo...her birthday is coming next wed!! next fri is my Fyp draft report submission!! and next fri is also the deadline for Post graduate studies application! Next week i need to meet at least 3 prof to get the testimony from them and also talk about their projects. Siong.

of cos, I can't wait for the 25th to come. Wanna do something really fun! ")

Back to my thesis!

Falling and staying in love

2009-03-10T11:02:00.000-07:00

Today I had my FNA lecture and without fail, my lecturer will make us laugh with his jokes and also sometime informative powerpoint which is outside the course he is teaching.

Today he explained to us how people fall in love and stay in love. Basically there are 2 main chemicals which help us experience love and keep us loving with our partners.

Falling in love- Dopamine
- this is the drug which make us feel like we are in heaven and makes us have alot of energy but require us to rest very little. Its effect is close to that of some drugs but with no side effects. However this chemical typically last only for 4 years.

Then how do boy-girl friends and married couple stay together after 4 years?

Staying in love- Oxytocin
- this is the chemical that makes us have a sense of bonding and connectedness. This is the chemical that keeps married couple and long term couples together even when the effect of Dopamine is gone.

At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter what chemical is reponsible for what or when it will use up. What matters is the need for each of the partner in the relationship to keep contributing to the relationship and keep stimulating the production of these love chemicals.

Let's run together!

"Fresh" Graduate

2009-03-07T20:40:00.000-08:00

Was talking to some of my friends on my way back from church and we were debating on why so many fresh graduatse from Uni can't seems to find jobs. While it is true that the eonomy is bad, however it seems the problem isn't that bad for poly graduates or ITE graduates.

We do agree on 2 points.

1)The Economy is bad.

This isn't the best time to graduate or would i say, this ISN'T the time to graduate at all! Uni graduates not only compete with one another but also those kena retrenched with experiences under their belt!

2)The "fresh" mindset.

Alot of companies are actually hiring. It is just that people refused to work for them. To put it frankly, we feel we are "up" one level and this job is not "suitable" for us. I got admit this is a real problem. Personally, i don like sales job. Even sales engineer, to me, i feel you study so much to do sales?! might as well go poly and then go be sales engineer after that. Having to speak to so many of my friends, many of them are actually quite picky even till now. Don't want teacher, don't want army, airforce or navy, don't want hardcore engineering, don't want shipyard, don't want alot of OT one, must be office based, hopefully town area, cannot jurong island, want bigh companies, want to pay well, want to have good bonus, cannot wear lab coat on, cannot have outdoor, cannot this cannot that.

I guess at the end of the day, we need to look at ourselves.

So what if we are Uni graduate? NUS alone, produce 20k Uni graduate per year!

Yes 20k! I am not even 0.001 of the cohort!
I think i really need to manage my expectation and re-evaluate the way I look at my bond..

This sort of give me a reality check.

Finish Strong

2009-03-06T18:21:00.000-08:00

Nice Video posted by stephanie.

Finish strong!

Permanent Head Damage

2009-03-06T05:22:00.000-08:00

Just came back from PhD talk.

I am TEMPTED!

Firstly of all, i have a 95% of getting the scholarship.Spoke to the Prof MO Lai and he told me in exact words, " You will definitely get it. We will give it to you."
Sound like some free gift.Now I am at a dilemma. I need to fulfill my bond.

Interest aside

Option 1: Stick with my bond
- Get paid about 2.8k a month, get a few month bonus at the end of the year. Spend my time in shipyard under the sun( that is a plus point actually). Start my career off as a scholar.

Option 2: Go for PhD
- get paid 2.3k a month for a month or so then increment to 2.8k after 1 to 2 years. Graduate (hopefully) with a PhD. Starting paid expected, 4.5k a month. Depending on where i go, perhaps as a lecturer etc, i might earn more as a starting pay. No bonds.

Mmmmm...need to pray for wisdom and advice from people. actually, i am hoping more for option 3

Option 3: Go for both
- apply for deferment till i graduate with a PhD and go back serve my bond. In the mean time, i survive on the stipend from NUS.

If option 3 really come to pass, i will be REALLY Happy. Grad with a PhD and with a job ready! That is like a dream come true!

Well, actually i am ok with going back to work. But one thing KH said that struck me is that, "if you can go for something higher and better, why not?" I guess it is not about the Dr or the pay but more of realising my potential!

Keep me strong!

Lovely!

2009-03-04T05:57:00.000-08:00

Today meeting with my Prof is the best so far. I think he is ok with what i have done and told me to stop doing anymore simulations. After looking at the results, he seems satisfied and gave some suggestions for my report.

After that he proceed to praise my Laptop --_-- and even talk about computer stuff.

Then he said,

"Well i know M.O.Lai is giving out scholarship for PhD, will you be interested?....blah blah.."

For a moment today, i was tempted.

I mean I never thought of doing a Phd, maybe a Masters. But with the numerous emails being sent out, i am starting to consider.

Mmmm... Dr Titus Seow sounds pretty good..haha...

Anyway..today I chance upon her!

Uehara Takako!!!!

WAAAA!!!!!!!! 0.0

SOOO Pretty!!!!!

she was my teenage years idol. If you guys know the band Speed, you will know she is the prettiest member in it! She is popular in Japan still after all these years!!Anyway Speed has reunited again!

Even after all these years, she still makes my heart pound!!!

Ok time to take a break! been doing Fyp ever since I got home!